Today I woke up with a question in my mind “where is time?” I’ve always wondered how humanity exist and invented time frame, this is what we call linear time, meaning the past, present and future. Which really does not make sense because, they are just fleeting moments from our memories created in our head and realized that this is the only moment we have, it’s the present moment.
When we live inside our head, we literally live in this illusion of time. We find ourselves thinking about the past, and sometimes creating future plans to fill us with empty moments. We are not in this present moment living mindfully on what we are doing. Busy occupied with daily tasks and things to accomplish that we forget that the most important relationships are build in experiencing not on planning and thinking of what the other person did in the past.
Surrounded by my family members in this reunion I’m astounded with all the past memories we had and how each and every ones lives differ from each others perspective. Being the youngest of ten, I grew up and seen a lot of different styles of living from my siblings. There are some victims and continue to choose to be victims, there are some whose lives are based on being rich but forgetting that intimacy with once partner is far more fulfilling than materialism. I realized that balance is the best way to cope in this dance of life. Celebrating the 90′th birthday of my father as we call him Papa, I’ve come to know that I feel blessed that he had fulfilled his soul contract with mine and that the lessons of forgiveness and unconditional love that I signed in for was fulfilled in this lifetime. I look at him and know that in my heart there is no more pain and hatred but only love that transcends human understanding.
Sometimes I wonder why a soul would choose to be in this particular group of souls? Then I know the answer is because we all agreed to be a part of this soul group and that we all signed for lessons in life that we agreed to experience in this lifetime. I feel blessed to know and feel this message because it brings closure to my pain and transforms me on how I live this lifetime. I choose to empower others through this soul knowing and will live time as eternal here on earth. My soul and body knows the truth, that this lifetime is filled with love and service of self to others. To share what I was given and know that my time is not stuck in the past, or busy with plans for future but truly living in loving moments with people that have come and agreed to be in my soul group.
Time is not in your head, live with all knowing that every given moment is a choice and that particular choice of living life with love, is what will create the times of your life. Live as if the book of your life is already written and that the author is you. Will you write a story of love or pain?
People ask me “how come you’re always happy?” I wonder why and it dawn on me that I’m happy because I choose so and I wake up with a joyful mind. This became my mantra that whatever is happening in my life weather it’s sad or stressful, I find myself in a space of choices and I choose my joyful state of mind. This is the secret to my being happy. There is a space in the midst of chaos or difficulties. When we are aware of this space, our mind chooses to be happy! I learned the hard way but it’s worth every pain that I had. I looked back and I saw myself that I’ve surpassed a lot of hurdles in this journey. The thing that save me from being stuck in my pain body is the connection to my mind, body, heart and spirit.
Healers are always saying connect your mind, body and spirit but most of them don’t put this context in practical terms but in high or elevated kind of spiritual knowing. You can’t heal your life if you don’t bring this in practical term. What’s in your plate is reality and deal with it, stop running away and searching for answers. No one can help you heal but your self and allowing this, you have to wake up, this is it!
You are the one who will help yourself, who will love yourself. No healers will be able to help you if you don’t wake up. This is what I call mastering your self! Others look for unending studies but find that this is actually the escape from mastering his own true self. I find this in most intelligent people. They look for external knowledge yet the most important knowledge is knowing your own true self. Ego becomes their master and escape from pain.
The mind can be our enemy if we are not aware of it’s function. Be aware of your mind’s feeling! what do I mean by this? Mind’s energy, is it positive thoughts or negative? is it self destructive or loving thoughts? these voices reside in this precious mind. We are not these voices but let these thoughts passes and become the observer of their functions and not to be identified to them. Because we are not these thoughts but connect to your heart and feel what’s going on and be able to release your feelings and allow healing to take place. Follow your heart and love your self for who you are and not for others opinions of who you should be. Self love starts by not judging your own self. Be the Goddess that you are!
Choosing joy over pain brings me this reality that I love myself a lot that my life will be spend in love, joy and peace. And in all sufferings I know that there is always a space of peace. Bringing love and healing to all beings. This is my intention to wake up with a joyful mind! And may others find this love in their beautiful mind.
The last time I wrote I noticed it’s been a month already well I guess I was taking my time and space to just be with the flow of my everyday moments…my brother passed away and my time stopped. It was a moment of recollection and reflection on what is important in this lifetime. I was given a chance to be an active participant in his sufferings and I find that I am blessed because he chose me to be his confidant in these times.
Once there was a time that I had a vivid vision of his calling when the angels came to my dream and told me how he was suffering and that he wanted God not to take him because his children needs him. I woke up with this vivid vision of a portal in heaven and the angels surrounding and a voice from this man telling God his sufferings. I can’t grasp this emotional dream and when my phone rung and it was my brother I knew then that this dream was about him. We had a lengthy conversation and he asked me to help him release his sufferings because deep inside he wanted to die, that he can’t take any longer the physical pain of his body. I told him to spend the rest of his days with his family and let them know that they are loved. To let go of the fear of death and to allow the peace in his last days. It wasn’t easy giving this piece of advice because it just confirms to me that I’m losing my brother. But then he needed my affirmation that everything is going to be alright. When I talked to him he was at peace and totally believed that he was in the presence of angels.
The last time I talked to him he was able to see my other siblings and was contented with his life. I was his kidney donor but that never materialized because he was too fragile to have the kidney transplant. The lesson that I learn from losing someone is that there is only this moment you have to create love with your family and friends. If we don’t take the time to do it now we will just wake up one time and realized that it’s our last day. Or we may never even have the time to know this is it…we have come to the last days of our journey.
Life truly is short, enjoy the times you are given and don’t waste it with things that are not important. What truly matters is the love that you create and feel in your heart. The things that are not seen are tangible to the heart and they are the things that truly matters at the end. This is the only time that matters now, not the past for they are gone and not the future for they are illusions. We are here to be aware of these times that are given to us, spend them with love, joy and peace in your heart. Whatever you do, do it with these virtues and you find that your life is filled with these times that are not wasted but blessed and fulfilled.