Posted on 28 August 2009 by teza
I’m writing this because I learned the hard way and hoping that my experience will somehow makes a difference in some one’s point of view is my intention from writing this. I now declared to the world and my family, friends and strangers that are in my life that I will simplify my life. Meaning what truly matters to me will be my priorities and that my self will always be the FIRST one on my long list of people to love and share my precious time with in this lifetime.
As a RESCUER I learn the hard way that I have to stop rescuing others in a sense that I will lose my self. In helping them I need to know the boundaries and that just like a Lifesaver he rescues the drowning and then he let go….this is the part that I failed. I attach myself to the rescue and then I get drained in the process. Rescuing is an energy but I don’t need to identify my self as this RESCUER, it is just an energy that I have a contract with in my sacred contracts. If you are not familiar with SACRED CONTRACTS by Dr. Myss I will try to explain it in a nutshell. According to her studies she believe that before we came here on earth, we have sacred contracts with these different types of neutral energies..they all have light and dark sides. The wisdom in knowing these types of energy that you have in your system and that you actually have a CHOICE to choose on what side would you like this certain energy to play the role in your life. For example just like what I was mentioning the RESCUER is a neutral energy but I can turn this energy into the dark side of it if I’m not aware of it’s implications in my actions.
What I learned from this experience is that my life is too short to play this role, I would rather enjoy my time with my children, lover, family, friends rather than trying to save the world. I can not do this anymore, I have to save my self. Because of my “SELFLESSNESS” I had no identification with what I need or what my invinsible self needs. I lost my balance in catering to others, life is about juggling all these in my life and I totally forgot the most important part of this illusion is the JUGGLER. Meaning the balls are the roles that I juggle and I am the JUGGLER of my life. Knowing that I need to exist before this act can be perform or balance, now my life will be more peaceful. This was the missing link in my act, “I” was missing in the whole picture of my life. Because of my spirituality I forgot that I’m still here on earth. I’m not sure if you the reader will comprehend this type of jargons because this is quite deep in my perspective but may be it’s just simple for you because you don’t make life to be complicated and your SELF is not at all missing.
What makes this illusion? I realized that the secret is finding my self back. When did I lost my self? I guess it started when I got my self succumbed in this painful body. The past experiences of my life was about suffering and I died inside. My spirit became the anchor of my existence. I made my spirit to be the focus of my realities because I found “PEACE” knowing that all of these external realities are just illusions. It’s like my Psyche thought “why bother about this material world when I know for sure that in the end all of these will perish.” There is actually wisdom in knowing this perception but it can also become a disconnection to my existence. I’m still here and so be it. This is what matters. My spirituality needed to be grounded. Like a tree we can only reach up as high as our roots reach down.
So what matters is LOVE, the times that I’m here will be spent with LOVE. Whatever I do, think or say it is about LOVE because truly this is what matters in the here and now and in the end…..LOVE IS ETERNAL!
Posted on 25 August 2009 by teza
Have you heard of this latest diagnosis regarding caregivers who get exhausted from giving too much…hmmm I know myself tend to do that so here I am putting myself first. Nurses needs to learn this lesson sometimes the hard way but it’s never too late. After weeks of dealing with residents having difficulty with Mental illness, death with family and violence @ work I found myself in DEAD ZONE where I had no energy left to even help myself.
It is a rude awakening to lose your BALANCE it’s all about this..whatever you do you need to center yourself and find your balance in whatever action you’re going to do. It was a shock how I can lose my balance when everything in my inner world was all about PEACE and MEDITATION. But as I take problems as an opportunities to become a better person or be in a better place, once again I took this as one of my LESSONS to LEARN.
These are the steps to keep your BALANCE:
1. Keep your routine! things that you do to keep your self sane! for me it’s meditation and yoga stretch in the morning. Writing as I go through my day.
2. Listen to your EMOTIONS, when you find yourself overwhelm with other peoples problems it’s a sign that you are trespassing others field. Meaning keep your COOL!
3. Watch for physical symptoms such as INSOMNIA that means you are not @ PEACE with your self. Mind, body and spirit when align keeps you in a SOUND SLEEP.
4. Feel your BODY, if you’re not doing exercise everyday you are forgetting your vehicle to BALANCE. A sound body and a sound mind keeps the Dr away.
5. LOVE your SELF FIRST! then you can love others. Caregivers tend to put themselves the last on the list. They like to rescue but they forget to help themselves.
Hope these simple pointers will help other rescuers like me! nice and sweet today nothing airy fairy! the angel is grounded I would stay being a nurse…and if someone needs an angel I can also be one.
Posted on 09 August 2009 by teza
We are all one in the name of love. There is no separation or illusions in this dimension. Let your mind be set free from all the thoughts that are playing in your head. These thoughts doesn’t connect you to your heart but literally separate you from what is real because they are coming from the mind consciousness. We need to listen to our hearts that this is the only way to create heaven on Earth. We are here right now beside you and everywhere you go, call on us and you will feel our presence. People makes a big deal on how come others have gifts and not them. Well my friends you have to be open to these messages in order for you to receive.
The creation or genesis is here, a paradise or new earth as you evolve to this new dimension of love. No more sufferings, as you go through life, you will find that you are in the midst of distractions but as you stand still in chaos you will find the stillness that will bring you back to home. This is home, your body is the vehicle, when you are align to your body and the Chakra energy centers, it becomes light and connected to the Source. It is simple but we like to make things complicated. Children are our teachers, for they know the truth and this will set us free.
Simple steps to create inner peace:
1. Breathe and focus on the rise and fall of your breathing.
2. Be aware of your thoughts, and let go. Don’t identify with these thoughts but allow whatever enters your mind.
3. Meditate and be in stillness.
4. Connect to nature and children, they will bring you back to home.
5. When speaking ask the question “is it true, simple and pure?” before you speak.
6. Your body and mind is your vehicle for peace.
7. Bless all that you see, and your blessings will manifest a thousands fold!
Posted on 02 August 2009 by teza
“Seeing when you justify yourself or when you blame others is not a reason to criticize yourself, but actually an opportunity to recognize what all people do and how it imprisons us in a very limited perspective of this world. It’s a chance to see that you’re holding on to your interpretation of reality. It allows you to reflect that that’s all it is- nothing more and nothing less: just your interpretation of reality.” quote from one of my favorite teachers Pema Chodron in her book The Wisdom of no Escape.
These words of wisdom strike home and as I reflect on this I found myself in quite a safe space. How many times was I hard on myself when I found that I judge others or blame them for my mistakes? Then it dawn on me that this is not the time to criticize myself but to take this as an opportunity to learn. Once again it’s all about the lessons to be learn and one of them is here. To see how we imprison ourselves in this little world of MIND. Our interpretation of reality is just one of them and we’ll surely find freedom if we allow ourselves to see this without opinions. Why can’t we all see this? And be in this space of non bias, none judgement but just allowing and knowing that we are all in this same space.
Our interpretations are like clouds in the clear sky. they hide the truth which is the self or spirit. When we are clouded with these illusions we unconsciously separate ourselves from one another. The clear vast sky is like our eternal spirit and pure heart. When we are not thinking or identifying with the thoughts in the head then we become one with the spirit and every living force. We flow with the Universal energy and we are at peace.
What is your interpretation of reality? How do you feel about others interpretations? Do you allow them with ease or are you always justifying yours? Who is right and wrong? There is that space where you can go and release that tension, breathe, and tell yourself it’s just a thought. This is what we do when we meditate, we become aware and we let go. We don’t identify with the thoughts but to let go and release. This allows us to be aware of what truth is and if you have silence between the noises or voices in your head you will become clear and soon you will find yourself in that none judgemental state.
Life is too short to be bothered who’s right or wrong. What I learn from this life is to continually open my heart and accept all situations, emotions and people in my path. Whatever lessons I have to learn, I’m open to uncovering the petals of my heart. This is the way of the true warrior, I have the sword of love to lighten my path and drive away the sorrows and fears of this world. The only truth that we have right now at this moment is the choice and the power within us to connect to our hearts. To soar with our wings of love, the path of the lover is not that easy, we have to do a lot of uncovering and what lies beneath those walls are the poisons to our spirit. But ultimately we uncover these poisons and to dig deeper to allow light to penetrate and release these toxic emotions to set free and allow love once again to shine forth and be free.