As I write in this space, my heart is heavy and dense. There is a void deep within me that says I’m quite not right. There is a voice that speaks “you’re going to be okay, stay grounded!” You are prepared to experience this and everything will be all right. Receiving a message from my loved ones in the Philippines that my father is in comatose brought me to this condition.

For the last few nights I was dreaming of coffins three days in a row and brushed them off because I didn’t want to pay attention to death. Then the other night I felt there was someone in my room I thought it was my Mom and was asking if I want to see her and I said no it’s okay, I’m not ready. It’s quite surreal now that I look back and all the signs were there. Today I got a kitten from the Animal Rescue and he is home with us his name is Oscar. He is my angel, he purred and slept on my chest last night keeping vigil for my peace.

I looked back to my memories and it’s quite funny how I spent half of my lifetime in this “victim consciousness” without looking at the bigger picture that my souls purpose lies deep within this pain. My father’s contract is bigger than what I think it was for me to learn the lessons of forgiveness and love. Our life lies in this paradox, everything that I learn seems to be the opposite of what I know, it is the lessons from the heart that seems to matter at the end. My knowledge doesn’t complete me and the wisdom that lies from my experiences are the ones that my soul is longing for.

With this perception I learn that my heart matters more than what my brain knows. It is the heart of humanity that energizes my life force, my power and connection to this lifetime. It is the heart after all that beats and pulsates in our physical being that says this is it, you had enough and the end is now. How can we be so blindsided to what matters most in this lifetime?

In letting go I learn to connect to my breathe and just be. My soul is at peace knowing that truly no one dies because our souls are eternal. We lose sight of their physical presence but their spirit is with us. We are one, fragmented mirrors of ourselves. Our lesson here is commitment to experience love, in whatever field we do we are messengers of love. The choice is ours and when we hold to pain we blocked this message, we become attune to fear and no one can reach us. Attaching to  our pain is the biggest stumbling block in our healing. Our perceptions is marred by suffering and we create more pain by attracting this in our fields. We need to open our hearts and bring in the new template of love and letting go of pain. Forgiving our enemies and allowing love to penetrate our cellular memory to heal the wounds that lie deep within us.

There is nothing that you can not forgive, it is the ego that tells you the other way around, listen to your heart not your mind. For the mind is blind and the heart is the path to truth. Release the suffering and celebrate life every moment with your loved ones, strangers and friends. We are only here for borrowed times, nothing is permanent. Take the time to be with your loved ones not in working for material success. Your times well spent with loved ones are the treasures of the heart not the success of this world.

Let go and let God handle my affairs of the heart. My attachments to pain is gone and I allow this experience to rejoice and celebrate the lifetime gift of my Papa to me, I am who I am right now because of him, forgiving and loving soul. To you my Papa I celebrate my life!

BELOVED!

Why are we here? people of all lives try so hard to search and they keep searching, endless ways or methods of healing their souls, without knowing that this is it. There is nothing to look for, you have it all along the way, you were only so stubborn that you needed to look so far, but it was given all along. This is the endless path of a spiritual warrior, the archetype of a warrior, bringing light to others but when did he ever stop and reflect that there is no search or light for it’s within every individual, we carry this light when we are born and brought to this world.

Our souls longing for truth is our sense of identity being masked by ego. The wanting to know more and search more is the ego quenched by thirst of the soul. This is a path of endless search if one doesn’t stop and realized that the soul is evolved and when you stop searching is when you find the answer. Lies within your heart and soul flowers and its scent remembers where it once lived within the hearts of mankind. This is the path of a spiritual warrior, in all his struggles and sufferings he fights for the light, conquers the demons of his ego, faces fear in his face and say enough is enough. He only finds solace in the quiet of the night when he rests his soul and lays down to sleep and forever dwell in the peaceful memory of soul and dreams the mystery of life in the night of the warrior’s life.

I am a voice of this soul who longs to meet the souls that are a part of my path, this journey that I take leads me where I was before. My home, a return journey to this paradise of angels where no one dread to thread for in this path, faces ones ego and find deep layers of pain beneath this path of humanity lies sufferings and hell. Where are we going in this path of angels, where no one dares to thread? Have you asked yourself, are you this courageous soul who are called to be or choose to incarnate at this moment in time? Do you have the guts to thread this path of courage facing fear and bringing light to humanity? If you are one with me then you are one with Thee, for there is no boundary, no separation in us, we are one, one soul and one Divine creator who gave us this gifts that we bear.

Fear not for the voice is with you, encouraging you in every moments of peril. Lighten up the world in darkness for it is the time to shine. The phoenix had landed, behind the land of the dead, ashes and dead scrolls of the living, soared this flight of the angels, watching every movements you make, every breathe you take, there is no time to lose, fly high behind my wings of love, the fire within your soul is what keeps me going in this dark, dark world that humanity created. This is not what I want, this is your creation, wake up and smell the ashes that are burnt. Reminding you of death and where you come from, ashes to ashes. Here we are in this virtual reality, there is no veil to lift for it is lifted, there is nothing to search for it is given, we are all one, together we will fly with our soaring flights to heaven, ascending in the highest glory of love and Divine.

Our flight is here and it is done, for it is revealed in the moments of pure darkness comes forth the glory of God. The exultation’s of all souls unite as one, coming together in this era of energy and vibration, ascension of souls, the ladder of Jacob, the trumpets blowing, hark the angels are singing praises to the One above and below, heaven on Earth this is where we are right now. Open your eyes to the eyes of God to which it will be shown, the way the only way to come and return to heaven is open your heart and eyes to God who once revealed to you the gifts are here, open your hearts and receive these words of love and blessings.

The Jacob’s ladder is here, we are here angels in disguise, carrying light within, wake up the other angels to ascend for you have descended to Earth. Within you carrying this angel light, throw stones to trigger their wings to open, wake them up, there is only one ladder to take. The ladder of light towards ascension will bring us all back to home, where our souls resides. This is our calling to stay in the true path of light, a spiritual warrior archetype you had chosen, an agreement or signed contacts between you and who God is for you. Your higher selves are calling, live, love and laugh for there is no other time but now. Climb the ladder with all these gifts bringing back these angels with you in your return to home.

When I was a little girl I loved looking at the stars every night, sitting by our bay window. My Mom always reminded me on how I was fascinated with the stars. Deep within my heart I know I don’t belong here because I knew that I came from the stars. I wished three simple things in that starry nights of my life. First wish, was to give my parents long lives and my mother lived till 80 and my father till he was 90. My other wishes is about happiness and love. My childhood is filled with magical moments, times talking with animals, playing with friends, swimming in the Pacific ocean, singing and dancing for my family of ten, sharing clothes and food with the poor, running and dancing in the rain and celebrations and feasts of food in the rich culture of the Philippines. Of course I had my spiritual adventures from seeing ghosts when I was 9, talking to my angels, psychic abilities, premonitions and voices that I hear. My Mom try to suppressed these callings but at the end I found out that she herself has the same psychic abilities that she doesn’t want me to know. I don’t blame her, she was always trying to protect us and she probably knew then that being normal was easier than being connected huh! now I’m finding this out myself. That it is a challenge to live balance between two worlds and in multi dimenasions that I now tapped.

Why Akashic Records? I didn’t look for this it came to me. I didn’t even know the word exist, until one time my girl friend was telling me to check this teacher for a reading. Then, it all started, before I came to the sessions of studying Akashic Records I was woken up with energetic hands running across my body, and I hear the voice “you are returning to home!” I woke up filled with inspiration. It had been 2 yrs now since I became an Akashic Records Consultant and I knew then that this is my passion and the fire in me continually ignites when I teach and read others. My journey is an awesome path as I partake in this field of healing souls. It is a blessing to be with these souls that come to meet me, full of love and light. In every one that I meet I see my soul in them and it is a projection of my love. I feel one and atuned to their souls.

I believe everything in life is here, that’s what Akashic means in simple term. It’s a Sanskrit word meaning “spirit” it’s the substance before creation is manifested and how it is related to the String Theory of Quantum Physics and the vibrations that humanity is forming in these multi-dimensions is what we are tapping into when we are attune or vibrating in the same frequency of light, sound and vibrations. Akashic Records are formed by our consciousness, as it relates to the Law of Karma, everything that we do, speak and think about goes into this realm and that’s why we are a part of everything because all is one is this conscious field. It is a live vibrating substance which we create in our evolution of lifetimes. The souls that are here I believe have now ascended into their highest frequency so to speak. We are incarnated selves in one soul, you are me and I am you. It’s not easy to comprehend but once you get it, it is what it is.

There are a lot of evolved souls that are coming for this new Earth, new generations with open hearts and minds. Our mother Gaia is clearing all the toxicity that we placed upon her, and as this happens we are opening our hearts to what is real and important in this lifetime. Our minds are being awaken to listen to our hearts and to let go of the false selves that we’ve been carrying in the past. The masks that we put in our state of consciousness are being revealed. The power and manipulation of these politicians, religious organizations, schools, any institutions that manipulates for their own profit will be bringing their truth out to the open, because they no longer can bear the pain and suffering of their own kind. They will be put to test of fire or purification in their own agendas and become unified in truth and freedom of spirit. The ego has now bow down to the self and allow the spirit to flourish, shine light, love and unified souls in this lifetime.

You are a part of this Akashic Records, and when you are aware, awake, align and active in this participation, you become conscious to all that is everything and all becomes one in your eyes of perception. There is no separation, but unified spirit. You become me and I become you. Together we are integrated in this field of love and light, we are one. We will build this conscious Akashic right here in our minds and hearts, we become conscious of our thoughts, actions and words. We become light and our intentions is from love not fear. We are home and our return to the Akashic Records is here, live, love and laugh.

BELOVED!

Illusions exist in our mind consciousness, and as our evolution ascends, they are being transmuted into the crystalline grids of the energetic fields of light. What are these illusions? They are the thoughts that continually and cyclically lives inside your head like parasites. The voices that speak in your head, saying that you are not good enough, which are skeptic, along with many other schema that reside in our mind consciousness.

As an unconscious human being goes through the motions of this toxic drama, he/she is subjected to suffering and pain. You are prone to listening to this fear agenda due to conditioning of your mind, ancestral beliefs and family’s dysfunction. Unknowingly you are trapped in the “pain body” which Eckart Tolle refers to in the “Power of Now”.

Our perception of existence is trapped in this three-dimensional box that we are in, we are asleep to the dream of the grand creator and we need to align with this energetic field in order to ascend. Our filter of perception is usually hooked to this pain body if we are not awakened to be able to observe this “illusory field”. There are a lot of things to consider, I will point out some simple things that will open your field of perceptions:

1. Check your emotions, ask yourself “how do I feel in my heart?” Are you feeling low? Your energy and vibrations are dense and slow, not feeling connected to happy feelings of joy, love and peace.

2. Ask yourself, why am I having separation thoughts? when this happens remember that all is one, then with that knowing if you still don’t feel connected to others, then you are merely projecting separation. Whatever you judge the other person to be is what you are inside; like attracts like. When you judge you don’t define the other person but you are defining yourself as someone who judges.

3. Be an observer, you are consciousness, you are in this river of life and whatever you have in the flow of your life is what you need right at the moment.

4. Be still,it is here that you find the answer to all that is. There is nothing that you need to do but find the stillness and center yourself. It is what it is!

5. Breathe, I can’t emphasize enough the power of this in our lives. We forget that this gift of life is so important to allow our selves to come back to our truth, we are free like this breath of life, freely flowing to connect to the Source.

In this illusory world, we become attached to our own drama, gossips, suffering, hatred and fear, unconsciously asleep to the truth that we are all one in this field of consciousness. There is no time to lose, but be awake to the calling of time. There is no time and space for fearful agendas. We need to open our hearts to others who are like us in times of suffering. We need open our minds and hearts to all that is in this path, the path of least resistance.

Allow this flow of love to penetrate your being, bringing you back to your home. Return to your home where your heart is. Forgive others and accept the path that you tread, there is always a space of love when you stop and see yourself as others. Without this compassionate wisdom we will no longer see the coming of the next generations if we don’t stop and be aware of the signs of times.

Wake up, smell the flowers, talk to the animals, hug a tree, go for a nature walk, smile at strangers, say how you love your family and kiss, these are simple gestures that will bring you back to who you are and what is important in this lifetime.

The material things that you surround your self with are not real, they are illusions created by your attachment to your false self which is the ego.

What is real is the love, the feelings that touch your heart.

When we become aware, we listen with our hearts open and be the observer of what is being played in our drama or game. It doesn’t affect the observer because it knows the truth; it detaches itself from what wants attention. It only observes, doesn’t react and attach, it just is. It reflects and asks what if this is my own creation, what is the lesson to learn? Letting go of expectations, not believing others but truly listening with an open heart. This is the path of a spiritual warrior, it brings light by being present not by fighting. We are these bringers of light, bearers of joy and messengers of love. We take others in our journey towards light and love. We come here to be united in our thoughts and consciousness. We are mirrors of one others; let us see with the eyes of love not those of fear.

We need to wake up from the nightmares of the dream-spell. I see this energy world as a dream. No one wants to wake up from a beautiful and pleasant dream, but certainly one would want to wake up from a nightmare and be relieved of all the bad feelings it burdens us with. So the nightmares are here to wake us up, whatever is happening in the world, be it hatred, war, earthquakes, divorces, child abuse, crimes, and countless others, we are here to bring blessings to all the pain that we are surrounded with. Bless them and detach from them because we are here to love and not to suffer. It can be a better world if everyone takes the responsibility to be awake, aware, aligned and an active participant in their own little world. Dream of a beautiful dream; that is where we belong but because we are human beings, we have forgotten where we belong, our home is where our heart is.

As I write with this flow of energy I remember sitting here and wondering how am I going to be a writer when I didn’t take any courses to be in this flow of energy and now it dawn on me that passion and creativity has nothing to do with your left brain which is where your ego resides, the thinking process. Writing actually has more connection to your right brain which functions are more in the intuition and creativity. Yes, this is what happen when we are in the left brain thinking process, we deny our own inner connection to the Divine creative nature that we inherit from our Divine creator. Coming from a background of a strict religious dogma, I was condition to think less of my self and to bow to the God and its High Priests that we are conditioned to think highly of. Come to think of it if we think less of ourselves then we are basically saying that our Divine creator is not good enough to create us. We have to be happy and proud of ourselves because of our extra ordinary gifts that we have and was given not to be small but to be great bearers of love and light.

HUMILITY is important to connect to humanity but it does not mean that you have to take for granted what you have been given. Do whatever makes you feel happy and connected. Don’t think of what other people would say because at the end it’s between you and your self and your Divine Creator that matters anyway. When I write don’t believe what I say but listen with your heart and mind open, this will help you set the grounds for expansion. Humanity have a lot of beliefs and in our own little world we live in a dream and in this dream that you weave, you are the creator and the writer of your life. When you evolve here on earth, you are in this time of accelerated energy that brings into action all of your fragmented selves in the past, present and future. The ARCHETYPAL ENERGY that you have agreements with in your SACRED CONTRACTS are being played upon on your lifetime.

You wonder if you look at the past “where in the world did I do that for?” for some reason you have completed an incarnation of a sometimes mythic figure like a WARRIOR, GODDESS or ANGEL. There are a lot of contracts that you have signed for and in this physical dimension that you are living, in this third dimensional body that you resides you will be completing all souls contrasts that you signed for. The contracts will not leave your energetic field but they are there to create lessons for your life. When you have completed the contract meaning you already learned the lesson, you somehow evolve and move on to another type of Archetypal energy. As from my own experience, I have lived a life of a Buddhist monk, a nun in the Nursing homes praying for their next step to the other dimension, an angel to others, a Goddess or a Priestess, a strong victim consciousness regarding incest issues, and of course a  wounded healer, teacher and spiritual writer.

When you are awake you become connected to your creations and you ascend to the light and there is no duality or separation between what you see and your inner world. You have grand vision for humanity’s evolution of consciousness and you become a part of this enlightenment and transformation of the EARTH. As our world change, clearing, cleansing of its own natural disturbances, we as humanity goes through the same detoxification process. Our Mother Earth is us, and us mothers and children of this grand illusion or dream, we need to see ourselves as good stewards of our own selves in alignment to our body, mind, heart, spirit and soul. Therefore we become conscious, responsible and accountable people of the planet Earth if we want our existence to stay evolve and connected.

Fear is a part of our evolution process and when we reached the point of FEARLESSNESS we become connected to our own shadows and then light penetrate all darkness in our field of body, mind, heart, and spirit consciousness as one soul or consciousness. I believe that we have reached our final destination in this field of quantum physics, as the scientists are now finding that there is no solution to every equation in the mind field but truly there is a solution in the quantum soup of life when one evolves as one within the one soul. Mind consciousness becomes obsolete because we are far greater than this filed of consciousness. We are one in many bodies, souls and fragmented pictures of our illusion and created beliefs, judgements or anything that we create, we manifest in this realities of life that we call.

Our river of consciousness is overflowing with toxic stuff that we manufacture right from the get go, so our goal now should be directed to cleaning this river of life or consciousness to a fresh start. Clean your mind of negative stuff, live without judgements, be still in the now, save your self by being in sync with nature, silence your mind and go with the flow, listen and open your heart, ask your self ” where am I in my body, mind, heart, spirit and soul?” this will connect you to the Source of life. Be directed to the truth and be aware of illusions and ego. Connect to all your incarnated selves in the now and allow the lessons to penetrate your being and be happy. I am one with you in all your longings and creations, let us fill this Earth with happiness, compassionate wisdom and peace. Your thoughts are great contributions to mankind, think of happy thoughts and we will unite in the heart of all matters.

BELOVED!