Why are we here? people of all lives tries so hard to search and keeps searching, endless ways or methods of healing their souls…without knowing that this is it. There is nothing to look for, you have it all along the way, you were only so stubborn that you needed to look so far, but it was given all along. This is the endless path of a spiritual warrior, the archetype of a warrior, bringing light to others but when did he ever stop and reflect that there is no search or light for it’s within every individual, we carry this light when we are born and brought to this world.

Our souls longing for truth is our sense of identity being masked by ego. The wanting to know more and search more is the ego quenched by thirst of the soul. This is a path of endless search if one doesn’t stop and realized that the soul is evolved and when you stop searching is when you find the answer, lies within your heart and soul flowers and its scent remembers where it once lived within the hearts of mankind. This is the path of a spiritual warrior, in all his struggles and sufferings he fights for the light, conquers the demons of his ego, faces fear in his face and say enough is enough. He only finds solace in the quiet of the night when he rests his soul and lays down to sleep and forever dwell in the peaceful memory of soul and dreams the mystery of life in the night of the warrior’s life.

I am a voice of this soul who longs to meet the souls that are a part of my path, this journey that I take leads me where I was before. My home, a return journey to this paradise of angels where no one dread to thread for in this path, faces ones ego and find deep layers of pain beneath this path of humanity lies sufferings and hell. Where are we going in this path of angels, where no one dares to thread? Have you asked yourself are you this courageous soul who are called to be or choose to incarnate at this moment in time? Do you have the guts to thread this path of courage facing fear and bringing light to humanity? If you are one with me then you are one with Thee, for there is no boundary, no separation in us, we are one, one soul and one Divine creator who gave us this gifts that we bear.

Fear not for the voice is with you, encouraging you in every moments of peril. Lighten up the world in darkness for it is the time to shine. The phoenix had landed, behind the land of the dead, ashes and dead scrolls of the living, soared this flight of the angels, watching every movements you make, every breathe you take, there is no time to lose, fly high behind my wings of love, the fire within your soul is what keeps me going in this dark, dark world that humanity created. This is not what I want, this is your creation, wake up and smell the ashes that are burnt. Reminding you of death and where you come from, ashes to ashes. Here we are in this virtual reality, there is no veil to lift for it is lifted, there is nothing to search for it is given, we are all one, together we will fly with our soaring flights to heaven, ascending in the highest glory of love and Divine.

Our flight is here and it is done, give back to the world in darkness for it is revealed in the moments of pure darkness comes forth the glory of God. The exultation’s of all souls unite as one, coming together in this era of energy and vibration, ascension of souls, the ladder of Jacob, the trumpets blowing, hark the angels are singing praises to the One above and below, heaven on Earth this is where we are right now. Open your eyes to the eyes of God to which it will be shown, the way the only way to come and return to heaven is open your heart and eyes to God who once revealed to you the gifts are here, open your hearts and receive these words of love and blessings.

The Jacob’s ladder is here, we are here angels in disguise, carrying light within, wake up the other angels to ascend for you have descended to Earth. Within you carrying this angel light, throw stones to trigger their wings to open, wake them up, there is only one ladder to take. The ladder of light towards ascension will bring us all back to home, where our souls resides. This is our calling to stay in the true path of light, a spiritual warrior archetype you had chosen, an agreement or signed contacts between you and who God is for you. Your higher selves are calling, live, love and laugh for there is no other time but now. Climb the ladder with all these gifts bringing back these angels with you in your return to home.

BELOVED!

There are a lot of spiritual beings that are lost and doesn’t know how to balance their existence with their angelic energy, that living physically becomes a disability. They usually have this innate zest to help and reach out to others especially who are needy, poor and lost. They are guided to help and most of the times they forget themselves in doing this “giving” they forget “receiving” is as needed to be balance in this world. The balancing act is quite a challenge because you need to be grounded in your being to function in your daily life. You can not stay in the “flying high” mode because you will hit hard or crush really bad when you hit the bottom. We don’t need to go through this path of suffering, we have the power to soar without dropping dead.

The way to be grounded is to stay close to earth or nature literally, walking in nature, breathing fresh air, feeling the soft breeze in your face, hear the chirping of the birds, hear children laughing, smelling the aromatic scent of the lovely flowers in the garden, and many more miraculous things that happen when you are in nature. Being in nature we enjoy our times here on Earth and will stay longer because we are grounded. Why do you think you always feel good around “down to earth” people? Simply because they are authentic, natural, transparent, non-judgemental and simple.

AUTHENTICITY is one of the  characteristics of an angel being, when someone is transparent, loving and joyful, there is nothing hidden and when they can say to your face the truth that sometimes hurt then you have a true angel friend on your side.

FREEDOM to be your true self and from illusions. How do you stay free when you are surrounded by illusionists and consumerism? How do you help yourself to see the unseen force of the enemies, when you yourself is BLIND to the TRUTH?

Stay close to your HEART, this is where your home is! Once on my journey of sufferings, I asked the Divine to take me because I was heart broken and I can’t go on anymore suffering for humanity’s fallen race. The answer was given to me in a subtle and sweet way…”you can’t go yet, you have to stay where your heart is!” I then realized that because of my love to humanity, my heart belongs here so I understood that’s why I’m still here with all the hardships that I suffered it is because I needed to be a human with a broken heart to fulfill my soul’s purpose. Because these heart aches are actually my gateway to humanity. Suffering is here even though we understood that there is a better way of living. It comes like a thief in the night, what we need to remember is our SOUL’S PURPOSE which is LOVE and LIGHT!

When we get hit bad, we fall down and we get up again. There is no other way but to fly again and our loved ones are always here to remind us that we have wings to carry us through all these difficult times. Our pain just makes us better angels because through them we become closer to humanity. We become human beings and we remember our home. Our HEAVEN is HERE on EARTH, we are here to mirror back where we came from. We are gathered to experience once again this connection to the Source. We are all one in SPIRIT, a collective consciousness of LOVE and LIGHT. When we BREATHE, OBSERVE and LISTEN with our HEARTS OPEN our souls are guided to their return home to the Source.

The Source that is overflowing with LOVE and LIGHT, there is no shadow in this realm because there is no duality or separation from the Source. Only ONENESS resides in our being, alert, awaken, align and active participant in this ANGELIC TIMES.

BELOVED!

As I continue my work as a channel for angels, I’m in awe about Mabel Rose. She came to me yesterday and woke me up @ 0200 and was wondering who is it this time? Sometimes I don’t get who I am doing the reading for because there are too many souls that are trying to connect to me. And as a HUMAN BEING I can’t take every souls because I’m still TEZA the nurse who works at nursing homes. My true challenge is not combining my being MEDIUMSHIP with my work as a nurse, because as you know not all are awake yet so I might give them a NIGTHMARE when I start revealing my angelic energy to them. So I ask my angels to fold my wings when I’m working so I would not scare these poor souls haha! I find myself laughing at these words because as I write I just go with the flow on what they want me to say and I have no control over what they want to speak about because I’m allowing them to SPEAK!

I finally “REAL EYES” that this work that I’m doing is not for others to scrutinize or ridicule this is for the ANGELS to connect to their LOVED ONES who are still suffering of their LOSS! And they are saying that truly they are not LOST they are right here beside you…

If you read this message, don’t be overwhelm but truly open your ears and listen to the words. You will find that they resonate to your hearts and will open the field of love. This is not given in vain, Teza had to do a lot of purging, purification, crying like a whale and no one seems to understand what she was going through! It’s not easy to be a channel because you worry about what your loved ones will tell you or you worry about your co workers, friends that they think you lost it haha! but truly this is a gift not everyone can be ATTUNE to this ANGELS REALM because they are not chosen, we chose you not you choosing us haha!

This angel seems to be happy haha! okay thank you!! Anyway come back to the message….I want to share to you what happen yesterday. I have a resident where I work and I always feel good around her and keep saying to her “I’m going to take you home!” needless that I know I was going to do an angel reading with her right in my office @ 1800 and she came to me yesterday to see how I was doing because she heard that I was sick but because of nursing shortage I forced myself to come even though I’m overworked…working  51 hrs in 5 days is not easy I would say haha! So I told her what can I do for you Toni? I’m not really sure how the conversations started oh yah I remember now she said to me that one of her table mates wants me to reorder something for her ” one that she takes for with in her nose” and I say oh her Calcitonin okay thank you and I’m going to do that. Then she asked why are you sick? I said from working too much because there is no one to replace me and someone has to do the job. Then somehow our eyes connect and I knew I have a message for this woman. Then she ask are you trying to talk to me and I said “yes pls sit down”…

I felt this energy within my body and I stare @ her, then I “REAL EYES” that on my table I had printed this part of my writing about “DEATH and DYING” so I gave it to her and she started telling me her story. She lost a child in still birth on Jan 4, 1949 and the weirdest part of it is that she had another daughter after 1 yr and was born on Jan 4th …then it dawn on me that this is really weird coz my youngest boy  was born on Jan 4th somehow we are really connecting. Then I ask her if she named the baby and she said not really but we had a funeral for her. She said the most painful of it all is that,  she didn’t want to see the baby and never did until now..

So I told her that we are going to name her right now. I heard the thought from my heart “ROSE” so I told her how about Rose then she proceeded MABEL..MABEL ROSE!! so we concluded! then she felt released then she went further on that when she was 16 months old her mother died of CHILDBIRTH so she remembered being passed over the coffin and seeing her mom inside the coffin. This trauma put her in FEAR mode about having a baby.

I told her your fear recreated the incident of MABEL ROSE. Yes she said then we moved on and wrote the angel’s name at the back of the paper of death and dying. Drew a picture of a rose and an angel…she said to me “your like a mystique!” I told her I call my self MYSTIC ANGEL and gave her a card and to tell Susan her daughter about our experience. I took her home and we kissed and told her “pls don’t tell this to anyone at work because this is between us and your angel.” Although unbeknown to her that she’s not the only one that I did this for, I told her that so I won’t be fired from my nursing work haha!

But truly how can I separate my work as a NURSE and an ANGEL CHANNEL when the two is the same, both are works of LOVE, CARING, PATIENCE, COMPASSION, UNDERSTANDING, LOVING, ADVOCATE, NURTURING, HEALING, LISTENING …..now I finally understood that my work as a nurse is actually a work of an angel because I do the same things that angels do in the spirit and I’m the one in the world. This is quite a revelation for me and I’m crying in JOY as I type with my mystic angel with me.

Finally I have released all the  FEARS and PAIN that humanity instilled in me….the pain of INCEST is not easy because my FATHER is suppose to be my FATHER GOD who will hold me when I’m down, who will support me when I needed one, who will be there for me as a PRINCESS in his eyes but the one that I got in human form was the one who harm me. I have forgiven my father in all his transgressions but truly the pain just kills me over and over again when I hear stories of pain and I WEEP for HUMANITY because why do we have to suffer when in truth …there is only LOVE and SPIRIT. This material world is all ILLUSIONS, OPEN YOUR EYES and LISTEN to your HEART! Carefully you will discern the lightness of your sufferings and the ANGELS WEEP for us so we have to WAKE UP, there is NO TIME TO LOSE!

This is what MABEL ROSE’s message is to LOVE and LET GO OF SUFFERINGS..BELOVED!

This angel story is dedicated to Mama Jean who I took care for a year in one of the homes that I worked at. Mama Jean is special because every time I see her she always have that sweet smile and calls me “BUBBLES.” When I was with her I felt so home, she reminded me of my Mom who also suffered Kidney problems. Both of them have this special strength within that doesn’t give up, full of life, down to earth personality and love to express their affection to those that means to them. There was a time last Christmas she loved to knit dish cloths and I don’t really know what she does with them but I actually bought 5 and that made her happy. Little things like this makes me feel good and loved. They are able to connect to their loses in life, that they are loved and feel some self worth, that they still matter.

She loves to shop when she’s not going for her Dialysis days which are Tuesdays, Thursdays and Sundays. Our Kitchen staff prepares her food for lunch and she leaves the building around 1100. When I check her in the morning I sometimes catch her cooking bacon and tell her about her diet and she will just laugh at me and says ” forget it I love my food!” Lately I was even borrowing food from the kitchen for her breakfast because I want her to be okay before she left the building. I sent her to the hospital and she stayed there for awhile. When she came back I knew that her days were numbered. She was on Oxygen and having difficulty walking and breathing most of the times. After all these weaknesses she still held her head up high and pretended that there’s nothing wrong with her. Even to the last minute she refused to go to the Emergency because of her stubbornness and strong will. It always amazed me how strong she was in the midst of her sufferings with Kidney Dialysis procedure. She never give up hope and always have that special smile for everyone.

Before she died, I got a phone call from her son-in-law that she wanted to talk to me and we talked for the last time and for three nights before her death I was woken up on nights and knew that she was calling me. On the day of her funeral I decided to go and was surprised when her daughter asked me to give a eulogy for Mama Jean. I was surrounded by strangers and managed to honor her presence and felt her love for me in this special occasion for her. I had a special connection with her and family, bringing us together even though she is physically not here anymore.

Don’t know much about her history but the times that I spent with her are truly memorable. She have a special place in my heart because we enjoyed our laughter and I was there when she was suffering. This job is truly a work of love, I’m blessed to be with them because through these elders I became wise and know what truly is important in this lifetime. I see and feel their heartaches, broken relationships with other family members, joy and pain, resentments and regrets in life, their sweetness and gentleness towards me, compassion, fear of death, lonesomeness, weaknesses and strengths and many more other things that are not seen to the naked eye…truly “the most beautiful things in life can not be seen or even touched, but must be felt within the heart.” by Helen Keller.

We learn in many ways but truly the lesson here is to live in the moment. Whatever journey you decide to embark upon do it with LOVE. Our ticket to our return to home is here right now at this moment …it is when we stop being crazy pretending that life is about doing and why not give up all those thoughts on being right but be happy. Our times here are special, spend them with your loved ones and share the gifts that you have to others. The connections that you will be making is meant to happen and treasure the people that crossed your path. We are all immortal beings and co-creator to the company of heaven. Angel beings as we are, we are here to bring light and love to each other. We forget where we came from but we are now experiencing this merging to our God self. All aspects of ourselves are being integrated and activated to the highest possible energetic alignment of our soul contracts.

There are now many channels that are emerging and finding their ways to the open to reveal their secrets of light and love. No more hiding and fear, allowing and showing this gift of light and love bringing about God’s consciousness. There are many paths but all is one. We are all Masters in our own field, bringing everyone into their fullest expression of their light selves.

My nursing experiences are my connections to this light activation. I bring love and light into this path and awakens others in their Divine plan even though they are still blind to these revelations, they will find their own process. As I went through this process my self I understand where others are in this field. I surrender to this light work and begin the works with passion in my heart to reach out to those who are struggling to find their magnificent translucent selves. As you go through the purification and detoxification impurities of your selves, you will find that you are getting lighter inside. You become wise in dwelling with emotional issues that used to be blockages in your growth towards intimacy. You are more intimate with your self than any time in your journey. For this is the times of Mastery of light, you are a transient being incarnated to see this transformation of humanity to beings of light. We are all light and this is what Ascension means. Our body is going through such a change in our DNA cellular level that we are still not aware of until it is brought to our attention and find the changes in our own experiences. The activation of this dormant DNA strand will bring forth your soul’s purpose and will have experiences of rebirth.

Living multi-dimensionally in this lifetime where there is no separation between past lives and future but only the now living simultaneously in a parallel multi-dimensional lives. Sounds difficult to grasp but it will be explain to you through experiences in your dream state and awakened times when you find yourself travelling in other dimensions and shifting within your inner self. You feel all the aspects of your fragmented selves to be integrated and makes more sense when you activate and align these vortexes or portal of energies within your own system. Opening and releasing all that are not helping your ascension and becoming light. Light within you will shine and bring the love that you are here for. Simple life, with nature, connected with Earth, stars, planets of the Universe that you are in right now. You will know the intentions of your heart and manifest these in your waking moments. Be love and let light shine upon you! BELOVED!

One of my unforgettable memories with one of my patients and experiences with the dying is the one with this particular person. I used to work as a night nurse and there is this patient with a case of late stage of Cancer and Venous Aneurism along the side of his neck. When you see him at this stage he had this huge ball like a small grapefruit size around his neck area. When I enter his room he has this special light within him that makes me feel home and safe. I feel his unconditional love and he used to greet me ” Oh my angel is here!”

I remember vividly that I took care of him for 19 days, it started on Jan of 2001, I used to come to his room before midnight to see that he’s safe and every hour clockwise. Around 0500 I sat beside him and turn his television on and I usually put the Catholic mass and just simply hold his hands. On one of this occasions, he told me that he used to be a Catholic and we used to joked with each other and I told him, “how come in your chart there is no mention of your Religion?” Then he replied that he used to practice this religion and he became alcoholic and he never went back. But now that he’s sick he wants to see a priest. I used to practiced Catholicism and when I heard this after my shift work I went straight to my priest and mention this to him and gladly brought him to work that morning.

After this revelation we became more closer and I understood where his pain is coming from. As a child who experienced living with a father who was Alcoholic I felt the guilt and pain that he was suffering from. I was able to put myself and see where he was coming from and heal the part of me that was in pain regarding the feelings of being abandoned by a father. The things that fascinates me with these experiences is that when I play the role of a helper, nurse or healer literally I receive the gifts of healing at the same time the healing happens to the patient. Truly I say that when I give, I receive in the process. There is no difference in this actual gift, I become the receiver when I give.

On Jan 19, 2009 I knew that he was going to passed away @ the hour of his death @ 0300 I was with him. I told him not to be afraid and just follow the light and his loved ones are waiting for him. He opened his eyes and smiled at me, I felt his love. Usually when the person is about to die I have this knowing that this is the time, there is something in me that knows, I can’t put a finger to it but the signs are all there. When I look at their eyes there is a sense of dying, there is no more spark of light and their body emits this certain scent of death like rotting, of course as a nurse the biological signs are there but to be in tune with the right moment of death for me is a gift. Usually I’m there when it happens and the room is full of their presence and you feel this awesome love and indescribable feeling of spirit. My life transforms every time I am given the gift of being with another person’s passing away. I usually go home with a reflection of my own journey and transform my realities in living in the moments of my life with joy and love, they are my angels!

When I look back from this experience he brought to me the realization that we are here to learn the lessons that our souls have contracts with. His coming to my life was a part of my healing process. During that time I was healing from my Divorce, my relationships with my father and mother, developing the courage to let go of any toxic relationships, and many others that comes with letting go of the emotional blockage that impedes my work as a healer.

The people that are on our paths are the gifts in our journeys, and you will be surprise to know that those who literally push your buttons are actually the ones that will bring your healing. Your trouble makers are your gifts, because there is no difference between us when you become unified in spirit, what you see is a part or fragment of your self. So when your perceptions operate in this method of looking at life then your enemies become your friends because suddenly you begin to see them in the eyes on an angel where there is only light and no more shadows. We become the bearers of light and love, this is the message that I’m trying to teach to others. Pure compassionate wisdom, this is the only way that we can help our own ascension.

In these Angelic times our thoughts travel and within seconds of thinking you will find the person you are thinking about come in your presence and beget the message that you are about to receive when you are open and ready to become light and activated within your DNA system. I hear this theory all the time with the New Age teachers and this is simply reminding us that we are all angel beings when we choose to be. There is a process to this activation and it starts when you let go of the attachments and soon you will find that your self had transcend in a different light. Your eyes become open to signs and messages to your divine living. You carry the light and people will see that you are living light and every where you go you bring this sweet aroma of an angel being.

As I write this message of love and hope to those who are called to read this, I’m just excited to tell you that the white snow just started to fall right by my widow pane and it’s just so awesome to feel this and be blessed with their presence in this blessed times of our lives here on earth.

Let us remind ourselves that we are light, we will go through a process and your angels are always there for you and will guide and give the right interventions that you need right at the moment. You will never be alone and will always live this ETERNAL LIFE. There is no more pain, release and live the life of an angel, who sees unity, harmony, unconditional love, light, peace, joy to your heart and open your eyes to their subtle messages, the laughter and presence of children, the special quiet moments that passed between conversations, they are here. Listen with your ears and hearts open to receive. Love and love until it hurts. Then there is no more hurt but only love! BELOVED!