This letter was written on May 10, 2004 to my father for our healing and I also talked about this is in my You tube site which is under “Tezamysticangel” which has now attracted 81,400 viewers since I’ve opened it on 2008.

Happy 85′th birthday! I’m writing this letter because I want to put a closure to my healing wounds. In doing so I will be able to let go of all the feelings that I wasn’t able to tell you because of so many reasons. I will help the little girl in me to have a voice and finally be heard. To continue to grow in trust and safety in God’s hands.

Papa, I wanted you to know that I’ve forgiven you for all the things that you’ve done to me in the past. Bur deep inside of me there are so many unspoken pains and unhealed memories of the past that needed to be in the light. In order to dispel the power of darkness. What I mean to say is that I needed to tell you so that it will not come back to haunt me anymore. Like a ghost restless and haunting. I still remembered growing up, you used to call me in your room and seduced me with fruits to go inside and you would tell me that it’s our secret. Then, you would ask me to remove my uniform shirt because it was too hot and I would do that and ate my fruits and watched tv. I can vividly remember how you watched and lusted for me. I didn’t knkow better because you were my father. I thought love is seduction and lust. I would feel important, special and wanted because this is the way you shared love to me. Why did you do this? Are you sick?

For whatever reasons the damage was done and I was broken. I didn’t know that this is the way a father should treat his daughter. The most hurful part of this is when you sucked my breast after the abortion. Do you know how deep is the wound that you have stubbed me in my heart? It felt like a sword had cut right through my heart. I lost my true identiy as a woman. I don’t know how to trust, love and respect my body. I don’t know the concept of boundary because of your trespasses. I don’t know my self worth, it felt like a garbage dirty and not wanted. These are all the ugly feelings that resulted from what you had sowed in my little girl’s heart. I’m not going through counseling and it was revealed to me that I needed to write a letter to heal my deepest wounds.

Papa, I’ve truly forgiven you. This letter will surely hurt but the intention is to share with you my deepest sorrows, in order for me to heal completely. This is from the past and I know God wants me to bury this behind. Out of this experience I became closer to God, telling Him all my heartaches. I would like to end this with a prayer for both of us.

Dearest God,

We thank you for bringing us together in spirit, being able to voice out my feelings and opening my wounds to my father. To bring a closure to the past. We ask you for forgiveness, compassion and mercy. Thank you for renewing our minds, body and souls. Transform us into your image and use us as instruments of your healing power. That with our story we could touch other souls who are going through the same darkness. Thank you for bringing your light into our hearts. The light that heals and comforts our broken hearts. Thank you for being a Father to all of us, and I ask you to bless my father and fill his heart with complete joy, love and peace. We ask you this through Christ our Lord Amen.

Praying for healing and true forgiveness,
Teza

From death to life: a teeanage abortion survivor tells her story

This is my written testimony on May 21, 2001 that I wrote in The B.C. Catholic newspaper and I’m here and inspired to share this to all to promote the sanctity of life.

This is what the Lord says; “A voice is heard in Ramah, mourning and great weeping. Rachel weeping for her children and refusing to be comforted, because her children are no more.”

“Restrain your voice from weeping and your eyes from tears, for your work will be rewarded, ” declares the Lord. “They will return from the land of the enemy. So there is hope for your future,” declares the Lord. “Your children will return to their own land.”(Jer. 31:15-17)

This is the start of the story of Jasmine, my sweet angel. I knew all along God had a bigger plan for my life, because I believe He will never allow these trials if not for a purpose. In writing this story I ask God to guide me in this calling, it’s a calling because I would not be telling you my life story if not for His glory. God seems to have designed my heart this way. Deeply, I don’t have shame, guilt, fear or desire to be secretive about this situation because in my heart I believe the truth will set you free! Nothing is hidden in His eyes, and I will gladly serve others by my experience if it will bring forth good fruits.

I was living in the Phillippines when it happend; I was just 14 when my parents decided that we would be moving to California. My parents left ahead of me, and I was left under the supervision of my brother. Unfortunately, my brother was quite over protective and insecure. He was physically and verbally abusive towards me. Due to confusion and abandonement, I became a rebel. I had a boyfriend and decided to take revenge on my brother. On my brother’s birthday I dared my boyfriend to make love to me. What a dumb idea but at that time I needed love and validation. I became pregnant.

My parents returned from California. They were worried about the family’s reputation, and my father and brother told me that I had to choose to either marry my boyfriend or abort the baby. I was very depressed, because I wanted to keep the baby but did not want to get married. The next thing I knew my brother and sister took me to a stranger’s house. I can vividly picture the house of that abortionist. There were lots of statues of saints, and in the bedroom where she did the abortions there were fetuses inside the jars, in alignment.

I was very shocked and hurt to see this. I never uttered a word. It was like going to a death sentence. She asked me to lie down and inserted a catheter. I was numb and mentally blank. I felt abused and was dying inside. She told my family that the baby would not be expelled until the next day, so we left. We went to my other brother’s house, because my parents didn’t want me back home. Around 3 o’clock in the morning I was bleeding and in extreme pain. I went to void and felt something. I looked and in the toilet and there was a little mass of blood. Shocked, I screamed at my sister and she flushed the toilet. I was hemorrhaging. My brother wrapped me in a blanket and ran for a taxi, carrying me all the way.

They returned me to that abortionist, and she performed a D and C without anaesthesia. I was in agony but my agony was about losing my baby not about the physical pain. She said I was the only person (on whom she had performed such a procedure) who didn’t scream in pain. She didn’t know that I was dying inside. After a couple of weeks I returned to my parents. But I felt lonely, because nobody talked to me. It was as if everybody was avoiding me. I started isolating myself to the point of not leaving my room for a month. I went into a deep depression. I remember my sister said to me “I missed your laughter, what happend to you?” The vibrant teenager that they knew was gone. In my loneliness I continually blamed God and angry at the world. I wanted to die.

Finally, my family couldn’t handle me anymore, I went to hospital and stayed for a month, being treated with strong anti- depressant medications. I started seeing a Psychiatrist and was put into therapy. I remember I wrote a letter addressed to my family and titled it “Open book,” about my feelings. It was a beautiful book and I wish I had kept it for you to know how a teenager feels when she had been stripped away of her rights. A right to give life!

The story didn’t end there my depression stayed with me till 18 yrs of age. I came to Canada and stayed at my brother’s place for a vacation. I found out that they were unable to have children. They were married for 10 yrs, I really felt bad about it. I said a novena to Our Lady of Perpetual Help for them.

I got pregnant again. This time I did something right. I hid it from my family for six months so they could not kill my child. I dedicated my baby to my brother. Every night, I talked to my child and told him that I’m doing this because of love. I knew I couldn’t provide for him, and he wasn’t going to have a father if I kept him because again I didn’t want to commit. Matt Anthony was born and he was a gift from God. I told God that this is my offering for the abortion that I had when I was 15. Even though it wasn’t my plan to commit that hideous sin, I still felt responsible, because it was my body that was used. The guilt that I was carrying was lifted off my shoulders. When Matt was two months old, I gave him to my brother.

I had an awesome revelation during a retreat I recently went on. I know God wants me to do something about my experience. I was reading Jeremiah in my Bible and thought that Rachel sounded familiar. I remembered seeing Project Rachel on the bulletin board of Our Lady of Mercy church. It is an organization that helps women with post-abortion issues. I talked to my parish priest and ask him “where do aborted babies go father?”He replied, “in the palm of God’s hands!” My heart leaped for joy knowing Jasmine, my sweet angel, is with God waiting and praying for me.

This letter was written when I was asked to write something for my aborted child in a book that was published for aborted babies in the Christian community. Out of the blue I got a letter from someone that they want a letter for my aborted baby and this transpired.

Thirty three yrs ago, I lost the chance of having you because of unfortunate choices that my family made in my young life of fifteen. Although, it wasn’t my choice to lose you, my body was the vehicle of your death and felt a great sense of grief, guilt and responsibility for this hideous murder. Looking back I really don’t know how I stayed sane through the course of my lifetime. As you know your brothers and sister had kept me going through all the years. They gave me the chance to be a good mother, which I never had with you. Losing you made me a better person and realized that I have the voice to reach out to those women who are experiencing the same agony. To give hope where there is doubt and to bring light where there is darkness. You taught me the greatest thing of all which is love.

I’ve been writing about us and never really thought of writing to you until this calling was made. This is the first time that I truly communicated with you. I don’t know how or what I’m going to tell you but I’m doing it anyway. You are my sweet angel and always watching over me and your siblings. In your world there is so much love that I can hardly wait to be there. All my life I wanted to be with you but I guess I still have some work to do here. I believe things happen for a reason and in God’s hands I surrender my life.

Jasmine, I’m truly sorry for not haviing you and for my family’s action of abortion. I can’t bring back the past and all I have now is the present moment. I want you to know that even though I lost you, that you are always in my heart and soul. Everytime I see and smell flowers I’m reminded of you and your beauty in my life. Can you imagine that out of a dreadful experience I will bear fruits of healing, love, hope, faith, joy, forgiveness, surrender, serenity and peace? These are the gifts that you brought into my heart and I thank you for forgiving and allowing me to be your mother in spirit.

Love is timeless and boundless. My love for you is as real as here and now. It leaps through space and time. It is eternal and bliss. Thank you for your presence and love that I feel in my heart. There is nothing in this world that would make my life completely perfect until that time when you take my hand and meet me there in the gateway of heaven.

I love you with my heart and soul.

Mommy Teza

In these times of turmoil, sufferings and chaos, human beings who are now experiencing this dilemma in their lifetimes are now releasing these unconscious negative beliefs that are hidden energetically in their existence. Releasing fear and blockage of the truth of who they truly are which is the spirit. There is a spiritual solution for every problem and when things are not going the way you want them to be, then you have to stop and recognize that you magnetize this situation in your realities and ask your self, what is it in me that created this? Most of the times they are unconscious thoughts or beliefs that are embedded deep in the recesses of your being. Some are karmic bondage and unresolved issues from the past that you need to let go and learn the lessons to move forward with your life. When we reflect on the hidden agenda, we are able to open our mind to the truth and open our hearts in allowing a new belief to flow with what you want to create.

Releasing fear, we become empowered to be who we are. Fear is a signal to us where we are not aligned and what we have to face. Facing fear is just like releasing a kite up to the sky to fly, when we hold on too tight to the string that holds the kite we resist and it doesn’t fly higher. Release the fear and you will find that you are liberated from all the illusions that you created in your mind and know in your heart that you are loved. The dreamer in you becomes activated and create the world that you want to see. The desires in your heart manifest to what is appropriate with your vibrations. We then self realized that we are light within and that we have the power to radiate and shine this light into the world. We will become a master of our own existence and know the true purpose of our soul. These are the times of the enlightenment, embodying this light of the Universal and Cosmic mind of God. As we ascend and tune into this light consciousness, we transmute anything that is not of light and toxic to our existence.

Anything that is not vibrating in a high frequency of love and light is a shadow of our own ego and illusion. The chaos  in our energetic field is a mirror of our own inner fear and separation. When we release this fear we become align to our truth which is love and light. The hidden shadows of our emotions such as anger, anxiety, jealousy and greed are just manifestations of our egoic mind and illusions. In the truth only love exists in our fields and be a vessel of light in this existence. The shadow or darkness doesn’t resonate with love and light. When one awakens to the truth, one sees behind the veil of perception and clearly recognizes the truth in every situation. It is about being conscious and aware of all your creations. As human beings we sometimes continue to participate in unconscious acts of illusions or separation. We get ourselves stuck in the shadow and darkness which was our comfort zone. But these are all part of the awakening process, our opening and breakthrough to what is the truth and purpose of our existence.

To be in the truth, we need to align ourselves with the substance of the Universal mind because the Universe functions in the truth. Without this knowing we are lost in our own fear and illusion. The truth resonates within our heart and being conscious of our light that transcends any darkness into light. We are the beacons of light, in order to help this enlightenment we have to allow our bright light to shine. One way to help them transcend their thoughts is by becoming a space for love and light to shine upon them. When they are lost in the dark, the enlightened ones are the guiding light for them to see behind this veil of separation. We can not evolve as one unified and collective consciousness if we ignore those who are lost. We are here to share these gifts and become a support for all that is still in the blind phase of their lifetimes.

Observing others behave in their chaotic situations and seeing the results of their own negative thought patterns makes you wonder how you were in the past and how you lived that victim consciousness for so long without knowing that it actually exist in our own unconscious negative beliefs. Ones aware of your own energetic fields and tap into the Universal mind, you become a conscious being of light. You become one with who you are and what you are suppose to be in this lifetime. You are the light that shines and brings joy into others hearts, bringing them back to their home which is love and light. Returning to home is like feeling at home with your loved ones around you, welcoming your truth and presence. When one is aware of the silence in your inner being one allows the space of unified consciousness. One taps into the Universal bank of the collective consciousness and becomes a conscious being with intent and purpose.

The only way our humanity surpasses these times of chaos and conflicts is to become conscious of our own souls evolution. Without this inner compass of our existence, we are lost continuously creating conflict within and in our external realities. Our thoughts are actively creating our situations and creations, when we tap into our subconscious thoughts we become aware of what we are manifesting and what is not align into our highest potentials. We allow the space of healing and letting our truth resides into our existence, connecting to the source of everything and becoming a space of love and light to radiate in our existence. This is the dream of the dreamer, the art that the artist longs to draw and the tapestry of the weaver’s dream of one unified consciousness into this realm of reality that we co create to manifest within our vista of love and peace for all sentient beings.

Angels are everywhere and it’s so easy to forget this as we traverse our journeys here on Earth. When we are lost in the mundane of things, we become confused and live the lives that are not in congruent to our angelic beings. We go through life unconsciously going with what is thrown to us by our daily works, conversations with others, bombarded with negative energy of others, surrounded by blind people. It is so easy to play blind as well but in the core of your being you know that you are put in a situation where you are needed to be. To share the gifts and wisdom of angelic coded being is your true mission. There is no blockage or hindrance to fulfill your souls purpose when you are align to these angelic beings.

Have you ever wonder to just let go and surrender to this beautiful dreams of living life as an angelic being? Most of the people that wants to do good here on Earth find themselves caught up in the material world. We have to catch our selves and be  in the present moment.  We will use the gifts that we have by just being ourselves. The most discouraging thoughts that we have happens when we expect others to understand and validate us. These sabotages us in our paths, don’t take anything personally and believe that everyone is in their journeys to be enlightened in their own time.

Your teachers of light will come to you as you journey in this lifetime. There are no coincidences everything is in harmony to your ascension. Never in my wildest dreams that I will attain this enlightenment and ascension of my soul when I was blinded just like anybody else in the my search for light. The light that I’m looking for is the light that is in everything and within me. When we are open to these teachings, we allow expansion of  our multidimensional selves to the unknown. The fear of the unknown is the common fear of our humanity because we hold unto our ego and existence. When this is triggered by diseases or facing death, we become vulnerable and only then question our existence, we open our mind to what is.

Our mind is the creator of our external reality and when this mind is entrap inside the box, we can only experience such underlying beliefs and conditions. The mind is in the field therefore we have the potential to tap into the Universal mind of the cosmic energy of our heavens. Healing the mind is very crucial in leading us to our highest potential without this, we are stuck and blocked to our little selves. When our thoughts are energetically aware to what vibrations they are tuning in, we can be conscious of our thinking patterns and lead it to positive and higher vibratory frequency of light.

Every thought and words have energy then we know that everything that we create in this mind field will therefore correspond to its energetic imprints. Be mindful of your thoughts and when you realized that they are not positive, you have the power to change and transform it to its natural state of love and light. Our Source is abundant and when you connect to this, your well being is content and happy. Our body is our vessel to bring our souls purpose, in order to bring the higher teachings of light you have to take care of your vehicle and ground this into Gaia. Without this body we can not function and touch others in their journeys towards ascension. It is a wonderful time to be born into this transition. We choose this lifeline as we know that we are here to serve this humanity towards enlightenment.

Remembering that we all come from one Source is quite an overwhelming thought, the knowing leads us to oneness of all. When you are wired this way, there is no separation from others, you feel that you belong and loved. The Source that you tap into is the same Source for all that is. How great and awesome feelings that you get,  knowing  that your small self belongs to the vast expansive selves of others and the God within is the God of all. We are all in this matrix, a hologram of all that is, energetically and electromagnetically connected to the vast Universe of life. All that is living and non living things are a part of us and we are the micro in the macrocosm of the Universal mind.

As I travel this path of ascension I’m in awe of my inner journey and how I have evolve as this beautiful energy of light to my self and others. I have allow my soul to soar with greatness and lightness. Looking back into my past self and experiences I can not imagine the transformation on my mind and being. How I see things differently and transform my existence into oneness, all my old limiting beliefs and patterns of mind conditioning from victim consciousness into empowered soul is quite an amazing journey. My soul became conscious and aware of its existence knowing where it came from and what the soul is doing in this lifetime. This is the soul evolution that I’m talking about. When you have reached your highest potential and knowing, you have become active in participating in your souls multidimensional state.

Our souls are eternal and lives multidimensional, we are in a parallel Universal lives, many of whom we are not aware. The most conscious lifetime that we know exist in this third dimension but as we evolve and expand we become more conscious of other selves in other dimensions. We are channels of light and when our energy centers are align and open, we become one in the Universal energy and are reconnected to our divinity. We see the unseen and feel the energy in our surroundings and connect to our Source. We become beacons of light in our own unique ways and others are magnetized to us because they are in the same wavelength of our vibrations. Our greatness is inside our magnificent wellspring of wisdom, bring it out to shine into the paths of other light workers.

As we evolve and become one in this Universal mind and cosmic energy, we will bring in the formation of our new Earth. We are the light workers and together we can transform our humanity into light conscious beings, that will vibrate in this high frequency of light to bring in an evolved consciousness into our cellular and molecular levels of knowing. We will transmute all dark energy or shadows into lightness. Our world will be a light filled space of love energy surrounding our bio-ethereal fields and holographic matrices. There will be no war because humanity will be about understanding, compassion, caring and being kind to others. There will be no separation and fear, love and light will rule in each others hearts. This is the world of the evolved souls that came here to remind us of our purpose and how to make this world a beautiful space for our generations to come. Our children of the new world will arise to this wisdom of love and light. We are the bringers of the dawn, create this into your eternal lives and become a light to others.

We call forth the Archangels and angels to gather around us for support and guidance. To remind us of who we truly are and to focus our attention towards our ascension. Helping others to move forward to this transcendent path, we ask for assistance. There are a lot of distractions  that surround us to sway away from our destiny but every time you find yourself stuck, you are going to meet someone that will touch your heart and know in your deepest core that you are in oneness with angels. Our flights here is not that easy but when you align your selves and attune to the angels realm, you will find inner peace and complete joy in knowing that you have come back to your home. Our home is the spiritual world, this world that we see is just like a playground that we decided to go and experience our humanness. Truly, how can this be real when it is impermanent? What we feel is closer to our hearts and what brings us back to our home. When we look inside our hearts and see the condition of our mind, we will realized that all these images, beliefs and thoughts that played inside our heads are just illusions and entrapment of our souls. Our souls are free and eternal, we are always here omnipotent, omnipresent and omniscient in one with our creator.

The hologram of our external reality is what we believe inside our selves to see and if we are light then we can see light within this hologram that we have created. Our dreams communicate to us our subconscious thoughts that create this field of matter and form. We can only observe our drama from the inside out to be an efficient observant of this matrix. Then, we know the truth of what is and all that is created in this realm. Our angels are here and we are here to witness our own angelic being to ascend and be one within our own truth. While in the process of returning to this angelic code, we will take away a lot of beliefs, detachments from illusions and possessions, realignment of our energetic fields, awakening from the past conditioning of our species and attunement to the angels realm. We are being called to let go and let our angelic codes be awaken and reactivated to fulfill our hearts desires.

Take every windows of opportunity to open and use the gifts that you are bestowed upon, remember your life is just an imagination inside your head that continually plays and choose to be at peace within yourselves and others. There are so much love that you can share and shower this world. Lead others to their truth and together you will create a world that is peaceful, loving and joyful. Your spirit of true giving and compassion will touch others in their search, believe and listen to your angels. They will whisper in your hearts, that you are one with them and that you have to rise up from the burnt ashes just like a phoenix, resurrected from the dead and now fly with your angelic wings with its true grace of love and beauty.

There are many ways that they communicate, in your dreams, people that are sent your way, animals, feelings that are strong and loving presence of others. It is quite amazing that we have heightened our senses that we are able to engage in this angelic communication. Don’t question these messages but believe in your deepest core that you are touched by an angel and there is a purpose for this awakening. We are coming from these angelic realms and they are reaching out to you to connect you to your home and truth. You can sense the angel coded people that are around you, it is a light and lovely feeling that surrounds them. Their presence brighten up the place and there is sweetness in the air. The way they communicate is through their soft voice and compassionate nature. They are positive and finds lightness in all endeavors. When these people are not aware of their nature they feel lost in this world and doesn’t feel that they belong here. They are very sensitive to others pain and most of the time feels their agony and soaked themselves in the drama thus create the pain body. They lost their vision and forgotten what they are here for. They become confused of their truth as they have carried a lot of negative conditioning of being a human.

How do we release and clear these lower vibrations that we have in our density as human beings? First, we have to be aware and awake of our truth. Aligning to our energetic fields and holographic matrices is not going to happen when we are living inside this box, the mind game. Releasing, cleansing and purifying our hearts to the truth. Recognizing that everything that we experience is our creation and we are the masters of this hologram. We are empowered angelic souls that choose to incarnate to help others transcend in their ascension process. Meditation is great tool to let go of the thoughts in your head and be in that space of love and oneness. Silence and being aware of your soul’s evolution where you are right now and how you can help transcend this experience and be one in ascension. Our souls are eternal, we are gifted to experience being human and enjoy the ride of our lifetime. Choose to align and connect to your angelic code and be one with those who are in your fields. There is no separation or fear in this truth, we are all one in this holographic matrices creating what we intend to make and we are empower to share these beautiful lives and visions to all that we touch.

The remembrance of our eternal home is here and now, as we go through lifetimes of eternally searching for the truth, we finally come to a point of our destination that truly complete this journey of ascension. When we reached this point, we are asked to follow our bliss, share the gifts to others, be passionate of your truth and do whatever your hearts desires are. We are angels experiencing humanity, deep within the recesses of our core being we know that we are, there is no coincidence, we are all one in this matrix and together we will create a loving and peaceful world in the midst of chaos and confusion. We will bring the power of the angels with its light and love to remain in our hearts and souls.

The light within you is your guide into this new consciousness that is now being transmitted into your existence. Anything that is not of light will dissipate and be transmuted into light. Relationships that is not for the benefit of all, one in love and not of separation is now being disentangle. Waking up all that is being called to be a part of this enlightenment vibration of love. Our respect for ourselves will be more pronounced and lessons are easily learn for the universal energy is not going to wait but be in connection to what is now in the flow. There will be a lot of destructions within your midst but you are called to stay focus in love within your heart and be awake, conscious of all your creations. Be in your thoughts, emotions, words and actions. Bring in your awareness into your current state. Be compassionate but shift this energy of chaos into peace. Let there be light and love.

We are now accelerating fast in eternal time and space, there is no boundary, no veil, everything is lifted, the realm that is invisible is now here present in your new set of energetically conscious third eye. Nothing is hidden within these light beings that are now awake and conscious of their souls. Where they come from and what is their calling, they are now being intune to what is and allow this flow of love and light. Once integrated, the flow will bring in clarity, focus and freedom of spirit. The body is being prepared energetically to carry this beautiful transformation into who you truly are. All aspects of your physical, emotional, mental, spiritual bodies are now being integrated into your higher selves, astral, etheric, planetary, galactic and universal selves. Multidimensional living these grand scale of energetic imprints into your physical world, you will be Divinely guided. The universe supports you into these transformations and remembrance of your spirit.

God is within and external force that is encoded within our existence. Our higher selves are presently guiding us into our Sacred path and healing. Everything is a mirror of yourselves, gently hold their vibrations into the space of love and light. Serving this evolution of human consciousness into what is now energetically grounded. The cosmic and Earth portals that is now aligned within your existence is being experienced by many souls. Let the light shine radiating from within and allowing others to magnetize this light and become a beacon of this beautiful creation. This light is the code of God that is now being experienced, no separation, religion or any structural forms can separate you within this embracing Light of God. Within each and everyone of us knows and remembers this Light and will be meeting again this Divine Light when it’s time for your physical selves to go back to Mother Earth.

Your Divine aspect will guide you into all that is, allowing this vibration of love and light. The angelic realm that you connect will teach, support and guide you into your evolution. Attracting all that is now being called to participate in this celebration of Light. The times that are remaining are now going to be use in preparation for this ascension. You will know what it is that you have come to do, serve with all your heart and soul. Knowing that the body that you embody is but a vessel of love and light. To God you will come back and the body will return to dust. The breathe of life, that is the breathe of God will be breathing the same symphony of heaven’s love. The Divine will be reveal in this many facets of life.

Your life is but a tapestry of these threads woven for the Divine plan of creation. Genesis is here, remembering the paradise that we once have in our fields. You have the power to recreate this into your life by allowing changes to bring you to this space of love and light. When you have face all your fears and let go, being in the present moment anchored into the ground of Gaia, securely and happily supported in all your journeys. Become the creation, create, imagine a world without boundaries. Create from thin air, dream, imagine like a child, act like one and bring in happiness and joy to all that surrounds you. You already served your soul purpose when you do this.

The angelic realm is here, connecting and waking all of us to bring in the vibration of love and light. Consciously aware that your existence is light, you gather all that is being called to this information. When someone is awake, there is no veil or boundary to this realm. Everything is being revealed to their eyes, awake or asleep they are being attune to what is and becoming these energetically light beings, they are happy to find home. Their hearts are full of compassion and forgiveness to all sentient beings.
Wake up and feel your heart, fill it with love and light for all that is. There is only love that can occupy your pure heart as you are being align to the Divine heart of love and light. All encompassing, embracing everything that is not of light and allowing the seed of light to penetrate all cellular and molecualr consciousness to grow within the Divine consciousness of God. This is the time to wake up with joy, love and peace knowing that you are this joy, love and peace within. Love every moment,  it is all good for your evolution. Embrace all lessons and be light. Travel light. Be happy.

Why are we here? people of all lives try so hard to search and they keep searching, endless ways or methods of healing their souls, without knowing that this is it. There is nothing to look for, you have it all along the way, you were only so stubborn that you needed to look so far, but it was given all along. This is the endless path of a spiritual warrior, the archetype of a warrior, bringing light to others but when did he ever stop and reflect that there is no search or light for it’s within every individual, we carry this light when we are born and brought to this world.

Our souls longing for truth is our sense of identity being masked by ego. The wanting to know more and search more is the ego quenched by thirst of the soul. This is a path of endless search if one doesn’t stop and realized that the soul is evolved and when you stop searching is when you find the answer. Lies within your heart and soul flowers and its scent remembers where it once lived within the hearts of mankind. This is the path of a spiritual warrior, in all his struggles and sufferings he fights for the light, conquers the demons of his ego, faces fear in his face and say enough is enough. He only finds solace in the quiet of the night when he rests his soul and lays down to sleep and forever dwell in the peaceful memory of soul and dreams the mystery of life in the night of the warrior’s life.

I am a voice of this soul who longs to meet the souls that are a part of my path, this journey that I take leads me where I was before. My home, a return journey to this paradise of angels where no one dread to thread for in this path, faces ones ego and find deep layers of pain beneath this path of humanity lies sufferings and hell. Where are we going in this path of angels, where no one dares to thread? Have you asked yourself, are you this courageous soul who are called to be or choose to incarnate at this moment in time? Do you have the guts to thread this path of courage facing fear and bringing light to humanity? If you are one with me then you are one with Thee, for there is no boundary, no separation in us, we are one, one soul and one Divine creator who gave us this gifts that we bear.

Fear not for the voice is with you, encouraging you in every moments of peril. Lighten up the world in darkness for it is the time to shine. The phoenix had landed, behind the land of the dead, ashes and dead scrolls of the living, soared this flight of the angels, watching every movements you make, every breathe you take, there is no time to lose, fly high behind my wings of love, the fire within your soul is what keeps me going in this dark, dark world that humanity created. This is not what I want, this is your creation, wake up and smell the ashes that are burnt. Reminding you of death and where you come from, ashes to ashes. Here we are in this virtual reality, there is no veil to lift for it is lifted, there is nothing to search for it is given, we are all one, together we will fly with our soaring flights to heaven, ascending in the highest glory of love and Divine.

Our flight is here and it is done, for it is revealed in the moments of pure darkness comes forth the glory of God. The exultation’s of all souls unite as one, coming together in this era of energy and vibration, ascension of souls, the ladder of Jacob, the trumpets blowing, hark the angels are singing praises to the One above and below, heaven on Earth this is where we are right now. Open your eyes to the eyes of God to which it will be shown, the way the only way to come and return to heaven is open your heart and eyes to God who once revealed to you the gifts are here, open your hearts and receive these words of love and blessings.

The Jacob’s ladder is here, we are here angels in disguise, carrying light within, wake up the other angels to ascend for you have descended to Earth. Within you carrying this angel light, throw stones to trigger their wings to open, wake them up, there is only one ladder to take. The ladder of light towards ascension will bring us all back to home, where our souls resides. This is our calling to stay in the true path of light, a spiritual warrior archetype you had chosen, an agreement or signed contacts between you and who God is for you. Your higher selves are calling, live, love and laugh for there is no other time but now. Climb the ladder with all these gifts bringing back these angels with you in your return to home.

There are a lot of spiritual beings that are lost and doesn’t know how to balance their existence with their angelic energy, that living physically becomes a disability. They usually have this innate zest to help and reach out to others especially who are needy, poor and lost. They are guided to help and most of the times they forget themselves in doing this “giving” they forget “receiving” is as needed to be balance in this world. The balancing act is quite a challenge because you need to be grounded in your being to function in your daily life. You can not stay in the “flying high” mode because you will hit hard or crush really bad when you hit the bottom. We don’t need to go through this path of suffering, we have the power to soar without dropping dead.

The way to be grounded is to stay close to earth or nature literally, walking in nature, breathing fresh air, feeling the soft breeze in your face, hear the chirping of the birds, hear children laughing, smelling the aromatic scent of the lovely flowers in the garden, and many more miraculous things that happen when you are in nature. Being in nature we enjoy our times here on Earth and will stay longer because we are grounded. Why do you think you always feel good around “down to earth” people? Simply because they are authentic, natural, transparent, non-judgemental and simple.

Authenticity is one of the  characteristics of an angel being, when someone is transparent, loving and joyful, there is nothing hidden and when they can say to your face the truth that sometimes hurt then you have a true angel friend on your side.

Freedom to be your true self and from illusions. How do you stay free when you are surrounded by illusionists and consumerism? How do you help yourself to see the unseen force of the enemies, when you yourself is blind to the truth?

Stay close to your heart, this is where your home is! Once on my journey of sufferings, I asked the Divine to take me because I was heart broken and I can’t go on anymore suffering for humanity’s fallen race. The answer was given to me in a subtle and sweet way…”you can’t go yet, you have to stay where your heart is!” I then realized that because of my love to humanity, my heart belongs here so I understood that’s why I’m still here with all the hardships that I suffered it is because I needed to be human with a broken heart to fulfill my soul’s purpose. Because these heart aches are actually my gateway to humanity. Suffering is here even though we understood that there is a better way of living. It comes like a thief in the night, what we need to remember is our soul’s purpose which is love and light.

When we get hit bad, we fall down and we get up again. There is no other way but to fly again and our loved ones are always here to remind us that we have wings to carry us through all these difficult times. Our pain just makes us better angels because through them we become closer to humanity. We become human beings and we remember our home. Our heaven is here on Earth, we are here to mirror back where we came from. We are gathered to experience once again this connection to the Source. We are all one in spirit, a collective consciousness of love and light. When we breathe, observe and listen with our hearts and souls open we are guided to our return home to the Source. That is overflowing with love and light, there is no shadow in this realm because there is no duality or separation from the Source. Only oneness resides in our being, alert, awaken, align and active participant in this angelic times.

This is the story of Mabel Rose, I have a resident where I work as a nurse and I always feel good around her and I always tell her that that I’m going to take her home, needless that I know I was going to do an angel reading with her. She came to the office and asked me how amI doing because she heard that I was sick. I said I was working too much because there is no one to replace me and someone has to do the job. Then somehow our eyes connect and I knew I have a message for this woman. Then she ask are you trying to talk to me and I said “yes pls seat down”…

I felt this energy within my body and I stare at her, then I realized that on my table I had printed my writing about of death and dying and I gave it to her and she started telling me her story. She lost a child in still birth on Jan 4, 1949 and then she had another daughter after 1 yr and was born on Jan 4th, then it dawn on me that this is weird beacuse my youngest son was born on Jan 4th somehow we are really connecting. Then I ask her if she named the baby and she said not really but we had a funeral for her. She said the most painful of it all is that, she didn’t want to see the baby and never did.

I told her that we are going to name her right now. I heard the thought from my heart “Rose” so I told her how about Rose then she proceeded Mabel, Mabel Rose! so we concluded. She felt released then she went further on that when she was 16 months old her mother died of childbirth and she remembered being passed over the coffin and seeing her mom inside the coffin. This trauma recreated her own fear when she was a child and thus became her experience of her lifetime until she learns the lesson that she needed to see.

I wrote the name Mabel Rose and drew a picture of a rose and an angel, she said to me “your like a mystique!” I told her I call my self a mystic angel. I took her home and we kissed and told her “pls don’t tell this to anyone at work because this is between us and your angel.”