Co-dependency is an excuse to be your authentic self. There are lots of reasons or excuses why someone would stay in a relationship such as this because they like to be in their comfort zone. Leaving a place where they don’t need to exert an effort to be their highest potential is an easy way out of facing life than becoming who they are. They have fear of failure and so they stay in a cozy place where they don’t need to face life’s challenges by themselves alone. They blame or point the finger to the other person rather than taking full responsibility for their own independence and responsibility.

They have issues such as abandonement and when they stay in a relationship like this co-dependency they get trapped in the illusion that they are being abandoned or they are abandoning the person they are with when needed to move on. There is an attachment to the person that they can’t let go. What does the person needs to learn when face in such dilemna? First, you have to acknowledge that you have a problem. Facing the problem is the first step in helping yourself out of the trap. When you don’t acknowledge then you can’t resolve anything. The mind that created the problem would not be able to solve the problem, you need to shift or transform in order to solve the problem. How do you shift? By letting go and going with the flow of the situation. Remember that anything that you magnetize in your situation is because of you not anyone else. So the problem is there because you become the magnet of the situation. Don’t be hard on yourself. Love unconditionally and start where you are.

“I love myself and take full responsibility for all my thoughts, words and actions. Be it done!”

What are the treasures hidden in the darkness? these are the sufferings, difficulties and trials that we go through in our lives. While we are going through the motions we don’t know that these will turn out to be gifts until God reveals to us the bigger purpose of these experiences. Things happen for a reason, and I believe God  is always there with us in the midst of our tribulations. When I had abortion surely God was with me weeping and sobbing in the deepest cries of my heart. He had heard my wailing and seen my broken heart. Through this pain I became very aware and compassionate about others pain. I can’t turn my back on someone who’s in pain and always be there to reach out to others. Can you imagine this world of darkness if someone can not see the light? Where would that person be? Will he take his own life out of desperation? Would he be wallowing in pity and self- torture? These questions are some things that a desperate person would be contemplating. I had lots of dark nights of my soul and was longing for God’s answers but didn’t feel His presence. He was too far to reach me and my soul is quenching in thirst for His love. “Where are you in the midst of this despair?” I ask God. You don’t hear God’s words and only when you surrender to Him then, I slowly hear Him again. The treasures are stored in the most precious gift of God inside my little heart. When I’m going through some darkness I just have to remind myself that treasures are hidden in the darkness.”And I will give you treasures hidden in the darkness-secret riches. I will do this so you may know that I am the Lord, the God of Israel, the one who calls you by name. ” Isaiah 45:3

The personal challenge for me is when my family members don’t understand what a mystic is and assume that they know everything about you. They want their peace of mind so they want you to take a “magic pill” that will clear them of their own fear . Their fears is actually about them, it is the fear of letting go with control and attachments. They want everything to be in control and balance so when they see you in your “ecstasy” they are scared that they will lose you and their lives will be in chaos. But actually it’s their own world that they can’t manage because they can’t accept the fact that their own mother is a mystic and should not be justified by any medical community that there is something wrong with her.

This is the illusion that humanity needs to accept that a mystic is simply longing to be left alone with the Divine time in her private reclusion or retreat. Let her be, as long as she doesn’t harm herself. They feel more rejected by the world when their own family members, co workers, friends give them a label that they are insane. Who really knows what sanity is? When is the world going to wake up? We continually live in sham and drudgery, the mystics know they are not insane but the society doesn’t give them credibility for these beautiful gifts of unconditional love. They seem to recognize the insanity of the mystics because they are afraid of their own darkness and shadows. It is living outside your box in order to make room for the mystics.

To see and feel the pain of the mentallly challenged patients in the Mental Institution because there is no one there to care and truly listen to their broken hearts is quite an awakening experience. We need to wake up as one collective consciousness to be aware that our world is not cut out for everyone. We have all different gifts and voices to be heard in the midst of our dark nights. We have the birthright to voice our true spirit and longings of our souls, where no one dares to thread. I am the voice of a mystic that truly feels the pain and sufferings of being ridiculed, judged and labeled. Enough is enough. We need to voice and see the beautiful gifts of the mystics outside the monasteries. We are here, to serve our humanity elevate their consciousness and become one with the Divine Source of everything. We are all one, children of God whatever God means for you.

The virgin archetype is quite an interesting one, you would think this has to do with virginity only but actually it has more issues than that. Archetypes are not only about physical expression, it is also energetic and there are many ways that they manifest. This archetype touch the collective consciousness and in the temple days the ladies are actually not virgin but they consider themselves as virgin because nobody can control them, they are in control. The truth that is hidden in this archetype is about power and control, not only of their virgin territories, virgin ideas or thoughts, their sexuality on how they want to be in control, to prevent them from having an intimate union with another person.

It’s almost to the detrimental of having fear about their own bodies and feelings of guilt that they are not perfect and not good enough to be with someone. It creates an illusion that they are in control of their bodies but it actually becomes an escape for intimacy. They become dependent of the need for approval of their bodies and they want the illusion that they are in control of their temple and that this will make them become respected by others. It is an ego in a form of control of their bodies. The obsession of the body and control is the shadow of this archetype and it can be transcended once the person becomes aware of the energetic component of this archetype.

Looking through the temple of their bodies, they carry the separation from others on how they intimately see and feel the world. The Virgin archetype has an intense inner focus. She is spiritually orientated and more concerned with the inner world than the outer world. She is now making a come back as women everywhere are beginning to follow their own hearts and dreams to manifest a reality other than that of partnerships, motherhood and child rearing. Often they are unmarried, but this did not mean that they were necessarily asexual. In fact, some of the virgin goddesses expressed their sexuality openly, owning their sexuality proudly and without shame. It was not given away or bartered or owned by their partners, it was wholly and solely within their dominion.

The union of body and spirit is not experience due to hiding behind the shadow of this virgin archetype. One has to realized that they need to have balance and intimate union with their own self to know that this can be transcended and learn the spiritual lesson of this archetype to fully function and become intimate with another soul. You have to know the fragmented parts of your archetypes that you are afraid to face or learn. Everything is about evolution and power, the path to finding the positive in the negative shadow of your archetypes will help you in learning the soul’s purpose. Every soul is different and you have to personalize the lesson and ask yourselves series of questions to help you figure out what is the lesson behind this archetype. Aks things that you are afraid of facing, what are your fears? what are the things that you are called to do and not to do? What is the pattern of this archetype? What can I do to help myself transcend this archetype and learn the lesson? It is about discovering your archetypal energy and how you can transcend them into positive light to help yourself become wholesome and bring light to your shadows.

“I declare to the Universe that I’m a co creator of my empowered life and I take full responsibility for everything that comes to me acknowledging my truth, inner strength, loving, forgiving and peaceful soul co creating this tapestry of my abundant life. Be it done!”

This archetype is not only about sexuality but it’s actually more about spirituality and how one stays in a relationship or situation that sells their spirit short. It’s usually when one doesn’t want to leave a comfort zone and thinks that survival is the easiest way to live this world. Most of married women are actually carrying these Archetypal energy. When they are not happy in their partnerships but feel they have to stay because of their survival.

Self empowerment is a gift, knowing your prostitute archetype is a tool when you can transcend this energy. One realizes that the spirit is more important than all of these material stuff and dependency that we surround ourselves with. What’s important is the relationships that are loving and truthful, when we stop denying and pretending that we are happy with the other person or situations that we are involve with. We open oourselves to honest, peaceful and loving relationships with our own self and others.

What makes a person to sell his spirit short? The root of this is fear of the unknown, when you are afraid to be who you are, you attract this fear and creates a shadow that blinds you to your truth, which is your spirit or light. When one is in the survival mode and can not find the inner strength to live the truth. It is an illusion of your true self, denying the power that resides within you. You are afraid to become big and empowered. One finds inner strength and becomes a true peaceful warrior of the light when he realizes that his inner spirit is more important to materialism. It doesn’t only involve materials it can also becomes a dependency to relationships that are harmful to your soul’s evolution.

This archetype teaches you to find your voice, to know your true self which is your spirit. When you align the mind with your heart you create the authenticity of your soul. Becoming conscious of your choices, that every single choice that we make will affect everything in our present moment. Finding your voice or self expression that will lead to your highest potential and highest good. You become open to what is and create expansion in your existence. You live outside the box and connect to your soul’s purpose. You enlighten your mind in all aspects of your attachments with materials and others. You become a free spirit.You thrive in all of those that you touch, with endurance, integrity and honor code that you make between you and your God whoever is your God.

The truth is about discovering your self and knowing what you truly desires and living your soul’s purpose. The situation is here to serve you to see the bigger picture of your life. When you shift your perspective this way, you use the situation to help and empower you to become who you are suppose to be. Use it like a compass in finding your inner strength. Forgive those who have harmed you and surrender to the Divine calling of your life. You have so many graces to receive when you face your challenges and honor your integrity. When you meditate and clear your emotional fields one can find inner peace with the situation. It helps to be at peace and it’s useless to blame anyone for where you are at because this situation happens to help you find your truth and it doesn’t help you if you are stuck in blaming others. Take the responsibility for yourself because you are always a co creator of anything that comes to you.

Miracles take place when you surrender everything to God, love is the only true power that we have. Everything else is an illusion. When your heart is open, you open your life to all the possibilities that you want to experience. Trusting and having that leap of faith that everything that happens is for all the good of those who follow the will of God. We are just instruments in this lifetime, we are ask to see beyond illusions and become conscious of our creations. See the gifts that you have inside and follow your heart. The wisdom lies inside this heart that beats as one. One with the Universal flow of life and connects to the Universal Mind of God.

The ability to heal this prostitute archetype is know where and what is the pattern of your disempowerment. When you discover the truth and accept that you have been going through this energy of selling short your spirit, you will find some light in the areas that you need to acknowledge where you are stuck. Acceptance is an important factor in healing because you are not stuck in denial, then you can face the truth without shame or guilt. Being hard on yourself is not going to help you but truly, being kind and compassionate towards yourself is the key to freedom of your spirit. Forgiveness for others and forgiving yourself for whatever happend in the past and living in the present moment will transform your mind, body and heart consciousness.

It is time to shift this prostitute to what is our truth with the Universal flow of love and forgiveness between all of us. We all have harmed each other in some ways that we are unconscious. Let us unite our consciousness in one field of love and light. When we shift this separation, we feel connected to the Universal power and we are empowered sentient beings experiencing the Divine flow of love and peace. Together we can make a difference in this world and be a powerful soul family in our evolution to becoming a dynamic, universal, progressive, conscious sentient beings in our planet Earth.

We live in this paradoxical world and dualism, when I thought I knew more that’s when the Universe gives me situations that challenges the truth in me. I found out that I know less when I’m letting go of the ego and truly looking inside of me what is it that bothers and clearly points it out to me that the thing that I see in another person is truly what I have inside of me,  only I was too busy looking at others mistakes and form. What I found out is that when I back off and put my self in the space of no judgement but just is. I realized that my perceptions are  about myself not about the other person. The things that irritates me are actually the things that I can’t let go or things that I’m trying to control and manipulate or it can also be the things that scares and challenges me.

This space can only be reached when one recognized that there is disharmonious, in congruent and chaotic emotions and thoughts that are happening in your body, mind and spirit. Awareness is a big part of this space, once recognized then the space of awareness magnifies and becomes more present. Allowing this observer and awareness to lead the observant or actor which is you as you have the control to lead this drama into play. The other person is the  participant of the drama and suppose to be your catalyst to self realized that there is a space of awareness that you can be when there is a drama. As an observer you have to listen to all the communications that are being said and listen to body gestures. When you listen open your heart to oneness and don’t feel that you are separated from the other person’s point of view just let it be and completely surrender to this space of no judgement.

As you listen you will find more space to allow the other person to open his heart more to you and be able to talk from the heart. Allowing this space of unconditional love gives expansion to the other person that he feels he is not being judged but being validated. Validation is a big part of the game of the ego. When someone is in the pain body, they are coming from fear and want others to validate their existence even using negative attention because that is the only way they know to get validation from others that they belong. Belonging and trusting others to love you for your existence is not easy to fulfill because of all the layers of masks and denial that we play. Detach from the drama and knowing that you are the space of awareness to help transcend the situation given to you. You empower yourself and choose inner peace instead of separation. By detachment we remember that everyone has their own world or dream so whatever drama is being played it is not yours but for you to listen and help the other person to see the light or the lesson of the drama. This gives inner peace for both of you and the relationship that is being given to transcend. Breaking down the walls around your hearts and completely releasing that is not of light and putting this light into the shadows of your illusions and ego.

Finding the center of your heart and focusing on what will raise the vibration of this relationship helps you and others to find peace. The raising of the consciousness of humanity needs other peaceful warriors to lead in the darkness. As we evolve in our human consciousness we are asked to be more responsible for our own thoughts, words and actions. We can’t let chaos disturb our inner peace. By being heart centered, focus on our souls purpose guided by our spiritual guides we become more strong and courageous in our existence. We become the leaders of this dark age and help others see the light within themselves. Opening our hearts to whoever is in our present moment be it a poor beggar, a politician, businessman, nurse or whatever roles they are portraying its just is a role that we are not to be identified. Because our truth is not about these roles that we play it’s about our spirit and heart. Without this compassion for others there would be no love only war and separation. Opening our hearts to understand more what is happening to the other person gives us more space to allow and become more at peace with our own existence.

Loving kindness have to start within our own selves as we can not give this to others if we don’t have it. Opening your heart and mind that the other person is not separated from  you but just is  a projection of your perception and consciousness.  When you see others like you and that there is no separation that means you are looking at others with a wholesome consciousness where there is no boundary but oneness in the Universal flow of energy. This compassionate wisdom then will lead you to becoming one with the whole humanity. We are one in the spirit and our souls are all in oneness with God whoever God is for you. Our higher consciousness is here aligning our selves to what is and becoming one in all aspects of our existence is the beauty of it all. When we connect to our Source, our highest potential is beyond our comprehension. We become a vessel of unconditional love and a space for others to feel love.

In our human evolution we are being face with all these situations of war, separation and chaos. As we dwell with our own little world of relationships with others, it becomes apparent to us that we are like mirrors of these global wars. We have chaos back and forth from our own selves  family, friends, co workers and many other relationships that we build. We have not come into this space of unconditional love and oneness. We are taking baby steps toward this enlightenment, but this light can only be filled within our own hearts and soul connection with others. As long as we keep putting our walls around our hearts we would not be able to see beyond the dramas that we are creating. We have to be aware of all our perceptions regarding others and our own selves. When one is looking from within and heart centered, one knows that we are all one is spirit and soul. The more we know from the heart the more we know we belong to each other.

Blessings!

I’m writing my autobiography when I was a child as a mystic, to help guide other mystics who are still in that field of the unknown and not sure of how to make something about their existence so here I am and dedicating this story of my mystic life to all the living mystics outside of the monasteries.

As I remember vividly when I was 2 yr. old having been diagnosed with Diphtheria and was clinically dead, my mother would tell me this story that she was in the telephone calling our big family of 10 children whom I’m the baby to bring in the money for I died. Then, suddenly the nurses ran and was screaming at her that I’m not dead that I’m back to life. This message always astonishes my little heart as I vividly see my mother holding my tiny body, and the hospital with special attraction to the French white door in the hallway and saw my 2 brothers running in the hallway. This is my first out of body experience and there was complete darkness, which is one of the great puzzle for me as I asked God “why was I in the dark?” and finally this question had been answered and I heard God telling me because you were in the womb of creation. I was given the vision of Genesis and in this paradise of heaven I was growing and playing with the angels, which I described in one of the chapters of the angels.

My childhood was fun filled memories, I loved nature and I grew up in the beautiful and exotic land of the Philippines for 17 yrs. My days were filled of nature, plants, animals and children playing in the streets. I wake up early in the morning to take my pillow at this huge Calachuchi or Plumeria  flower tree right in our back yard. I would lie down in the midst of the curve of the tree and admire these awesome white petals with bordered Yellow  and exotic scent of Plumeria. I talked to the tree, flowers and butterflies and love every minute that I spent there. My mom would screamed in terror after waking up and finding me missing in my bed. You can hear her yelling from inside the house “Tesang come down from the tree!” This is the normal routine of our mornings, laughing at myself now I can not imagine the pain that I caused my poor mother. I also run to the Pacific ocean every sneaky ways I can which of course got me into trouble as my mother would tell me not to go near the beach because of my safety, but of course I would not follow her command. I grew up with a mother who was strict, disciplinarian and religious faithful Catholic. I was brought up to go to church every Sunday and say the rosary to mother Mary everyday.

My sister who is like a nun brought me up, Carmen who is like a living saint in the Philippines. She guided and teach me the ways of a religious holy woman. I was always fascinated with churches and how people come together to honor God and Jesus in the cross. We were brought up in this tradition of Saints and feasts, there would be lots of stage plays in the streets of Paranaque where I grew up and spent my childhood, specially in Lenten season and my brother Michael would portrayed Jesus in the cross and I would follow him in his way to Calvary so to speak. I was also involve as an actress playing the part of mother Mary in stage plays. I wanted to be an actress but my mother would not allow this to happen as she believed that an actress life is filled with drama and shame which actually happen to my life.

As a gifted child I would always know and talk to my angels, dream of them and talked about them to my friends. Would also show them that they have power and that they are always with us. I like playing as a minister who gave the body of Christ and pretend that I’m a priestess. I was very active, cooking with plants, taking a bath outside our house with bull frogs while talking to them, takes care and gather ducks eggs and would give them to my mother. There was a special memory regarding the ducks eggs. My mother was turning 50 and I had a brilliant idea to give her 50 duck eggs, so I hid them and presented these eggs on her birthday and everybody was laughing because my mom was all the while wondering to whatever happen to the ducks. Why they stop laying eggs it’s because I was hiding them for her.

Very creative and resourceful that I am at the age of nine, this age is very significant to me as this is time that I have seen 2 ghosts right before my eyes. At first it was my grandmother, the mother of my Papa Manuel, I often ask him why I don’t have grandparents while I was growing up and because all of them died at young middle age. One night I woke up in the middle of the night and saw an old lady with long hair sitting beside my father’s bed and caressing his hair and she smiled at me. I told my Papa about this and he confirms to me that it was my grandmother, that was a lovely feeling that I got from my father to trust what I saw.

Then, the other one was my cousin who had died of a heart attack in the country side of the country where my aunts lived. There was this eerie feelings around me while I was asleep and wants me to wake up. I tried not to open my eyes but felt very fearful so I open my eyes and saw my cousin standing by the door of the guest room where he used to stay when he visited us. I felt my body numbed and ran away towards the stairwell and my mother was sure enough walking up in the stairs with a candle lit in her hand as it was a black out at that time. In the Philippines we have these evenings where there is no electricity to conserve energy and that was one evening that we had no light, I ran to her and she told me that the vision was not real that I was just dreaming. But I know deep within me that it wasn’t a dream that I had an experience of seeing a ghost.

I was a good student and became the president of the class every year of my grade school. I was determined to be a leader of the group and always have this confidence right from the get go. Also became an editor of the newspaper and create a lot of projects as a little girl that would make a difference in the community. Became the Valedictorian of the graduating class in my elementary school but as I reached the school of hard knocks when I was 15 yr old, my life as an academic student became upside down. I was involve in the drama and sufferings of life. I was facing pregnancy, sexual abuse from my father, abuse from my brother, abandonment and denial issues with my mother and many more trials and tribulations that I can not even comprehend to this day, how in the world did I survive all of these. The only thing that held me together was the love of God, the faith that I’m not alone in darkness and know in my heart that these trials are not given in vain.

My first book about the darkness in my life was withheld from being publish as my family refused this and out of my respect to my father, I took it back from the publisher. I now see the bigger picture of what God had want me to do with all these dark nights. I knew somehow that this is meant to happen but out of other forces against my will it was not done and I believe everything is about timing. This book “Deepest, Darkest Secrets Wounds of my Soul” is totally different from my current state of mind now. I became free from this pain body and lives multi- dimensionally.

When I was writing that book I was a religious person and I became spiritual. I became an eternal student of spirituality and realized that religions are all good foundations of beliefs that had been passed through to us in our existence. They should not be the base of our soul. I believe there are many paths toward enlightenment but they all have a common goal to achieve Universal love and peace. When someone had finally let go of beliefs, ego, attachments, false self and become a free spirit with a pure heart and soul towards other sentient beings, then one can be totally free, and finds inner peace in his own self and spirit.

I was very intrigued by mysticism and studied Palm reading, Astrology, Numerology, Graphology and shared my gifts to my family and friends. I have paranormal events like having premonitions about accidents that are about to happen and waking up relaying it to my family and then watching it comes true. I always believe that there is a Higher Power and for some reason I know that I was tapping into this Source. I believe that everything happens for a reason and a that there is always a bigger purpose in this lifetime. The molestations that was imprinted in my young life between my father and I was a Sacred contract that we had fulfilled in this lifetime to help others who are suffering of sexual abuse.

That there is light in darkness and if I can do it, anyone can do it. It is this inner strength that kept me alive and move forward to this new life of healed memories and learn the lesson of unconditional love and forgiveness. Truly our blueprint is created in the Akashic Records to help us evolve and be align to our highest potential in this lifetime, we need to tap to our own Records to know our soul and become anchored to our physical existence. Without this knowledge and wisdom it will be difficult to remember our home. That’s why I heard the words ” you are returning to home” before I enter the studies of the Akashic Records because truly this is our home where our soul resides and all the cellular and DNA memories are stored and kept with highest and noblest teachings of the Ancient and all that is created within our human consciousness. We are a part of the cosmic, Universal and collective consciousness of human beings and all the beings that are here.

In sharing my life, with all my shadows, darkness, ups and downs, shame and guilt, fears and anything that is not of light that usually human beings tend to hide I openly and honestly share to all that needed to hear this voice of hope. I made videos of my personal dramas and turmoils in You Tube and name it Tezamysticangel on Oct 2008 after the suicidal death of my son Theo’s best friend. When I was in the funeral I felt the pain of a mother who just lost his son and in my heart I felt stubbed to death and decided to expose the darkness in my life to help others in their sufferings. I knew that my family didn’t agree with the expose but truly I’ve forgiven my father and see the bigger picture of our contracts. That I’m here to help others heal of their deepest wounds and shame.

The guilt that someone carries when she or he is victimized which is not right because we are not about sufferings, we are about love. This chosen path of being a wounded healer is not an easy job because it entails a great deal of honesty and humiliation. When you totally surrender your life as just is, a reflection of your heart and soul,  knowing that there is nothing to hide because in the end it’s all about the love that you have felt within your heart and life. The relationships that you built and cared for, the friends that were there in your darkest hours, the family that abandoned you but was able to ask for forgiveness and reconciled with all the mistakes that was done. The sharing, giving and receiving that you did with strangers and many souls that touched your life these are some of the meaningful memories that will play a big importance in your passing away. This will hold the transition more peaceful and open to the new dimension that you are going to traverse.

As a nurse and spent a lot of times with the dying, I feel the compassion of witnessing an event that no other family is present during this hour of transition. I hold the hands of the dying and whisper to their ears “don’t be afraid, your loved ones are waiting for you, you are loved!” with these words they slowly let go of this attachment to life and physical form. They smile and send me this angelic feeling of release and fills the room with an awesome knowing that our life is bigger than this physical life but our soul encompasses the Universal energy fields. Our soul that is embody in this form is finally free and feels loved after all the drama, we have return to our home.

There is only love and fear is an illusion of our ego but it is important part of the process to integrate and embrace our ego and spirit to be balance and create a space of harmonious living within our truth and existence. Without going deeply and having these dark nights of the soul we can not pass these lessons in life. We continually create a karmic bond within our Records of life. It is an ending cyclical process of bonding and attachments just like an addict who can not control his addictions. We need to face our fears, ego and realized that this is our mirror to guide us in our truth. What we face and put attention to it dissipates the darkness and becomes one with light. It is what it is, we are living in duality but as we evolve as souls knowing of our true home. We see the duality as oneness because without the other there is no wholesomeness. As I see the one who needs healing as the healer itself, I believe I’m just a space of unconditional love to connect to the Divine. Because the healing only takes place when a person acknowledges the inner strength and Higher Power that is giving the healing. The healer is within, no body can heal you but yourself you don’t need anyone to heal you.

In my experiences as a healer I see the pattern of dependency of clients to the healer. I believe in self empowerment and tapping into your own Source because we all have  this innate power to heal ourselves with the Divine intervention. Ask and it shall be given. Simple, yet we don’t tap into this power house of God and God within. This is our birth right from the Universe, tapping into our highest potential and creating manifestations that is for the good of all creations. We are but a part of this magnificent Source, let us not waste anymore time, live in the present moment self realizing that this is it, your future time is here created in this present moment of knowing that you are here to experience greatness, love, peace, joy, compassion for all sentient beings, nature, plants and animals. We are a part of all that is, let us wake up and create a beautiful new holistic perceptions of life. Evolved, enlightened and engaged conscious human being.

As an evolved soul and human being I’m now ready and willing to be a Wounded Healer and truly recognized that these wounds are not given for me to keep but to expose to others just like the wounds in our body, they need to be open and expose to air at times to heal. The deep healing of these wounds take time, layers of bruised and inflamed tissues of our cellular tissues and just like the wounds of my soul they needed this loving and time to heal to the core. Allowing and receiving this love from God and others help me know that these wounds are what makes me beautiful inside and out. The joy to be able to transcend pain and find treasures in the dark.

We are all in the same field of light and love, we can only know that truth when we have finally see our selves as one with this true light and love that is the same for everyone. As long as we hold to the pain, fear, judgement and separation, we will never see this light and love because of holding to our story of victim consciousness. When one is not  able to see that our enemies are our mirrors for our own healing and bigger purpose in life, we will continue the path of pain. When we surrender, allowing our truth to shine and only believing the power of light and love, we will come to know our truth and have inner peace. We are all mirrors of love if one sees the other with love and let go of fear and separation. We have the power to unite and be in this unified consciousness when we choose to do so. Use your freewill to choose the will of God, be CLEAR with your Consciousness, having the Energy of Love with your Awareness and Remembrance of your true spirit and soul.

Our humanity is in the verge of a great transformation, we are in the bridge of this quantum leap where we find ourselves being in touch with our shadows and recognizing that these only exist within the mind aspects of our egoic mind. When the mind attaches to any form, it is in the egoic state, so becoming aware of this, you find yourself asking is this real or just one of those thoughts? In relationships we find the paradox that what we see in others are actually a part of ourselves that we deny. Seeing our patterns of thoughts, then we can self realized that, the things that I say about them are actually the things that I want to be or have. Our shadows are in disguise with what we see is right or real. The truth is what we see is what we don’t see inside ourselves. Everything that you say about others is actually the opposite of what the truth is. We are learning that our soul is what holds the  true perspective of truth and peace. When we learn to decipher this code of the soul then we become align to what is the truth of our spirit and learn from humility becoming one with all sentient beings.

Darkness is actually a part of the womb’s atmospheric environment when we are inside our mother’s womb. In my analogy our darkness is an integral part of our being in a sense we have to be aware of their magnifying force and how it affects us in our way of living. They are just neutral energy that is here and a part of us, and if we can learn to accept and allow their existence and not be against it but be a part of it then we will find a peace of mind. I find in my journey that when I separate myself and say “this is not good for me, it is an addiction and I have to be hard on myself and stop doing this thing that prevents me from being holy!” then I truly lose the point of being a human. The point is we have negative shadows or darkness because we are still here, we are not in the spirit meaning we did not leave this third dimension yet. So when we die or leave this physical field, we are going to be in the pure essence of our souls.  The fact that we are here is because we are learning what humanity means. We are evolving souls that is why we need spiritual lessons to learn from our experiences. Don’t be hard on yourself but be loving, understanding and kind that there is hope in every despair. Start where you are and there is light in darkness.

We are “spiritual beings experiencing physical experiences” then if we are one in spirit then we are one right now. Our relationships are mirrors of our selves and  we attract what we are inside or what lessons are needed to learn. We are bigger than what we think we are, yet we will only know this when we tap into our own inner child. This is the beauty of God, when we act big we lose it but when we act small like children we connect to the Father or Mother God, because we are living our lives to the truth and this will set us free. The freedom of being who we are created in love and as manifestation of God’s love.

Healing our relationships with our inner child  is very important part of healing our wounded souls. When we don’t acknowledge this inner child our pattern of negative unconscious thoughts keeps revealing itself. We are not in tune to what this inner child needs to feel and heal. When a trauma happens especially during this foundation years of childhood, we lost trust and this is important in building relationships. The core root chakra that deals with stability and security within the family dynamics is damaged. The roots need to be excavated and replanted again in a new soil so to speak. You need to spend some time of reflecting with your inner child and treat this being as you are talking to your little self. Healing the inner child needs time, insights about what your present relationships are presenting to you and see what needs to to be in the light. We need to allow non judgemental thoughts regarding relationship that are causing disharmony and reflect inside how your feelings are.

When someone is  align and living in the present moment it allows expansion and clarity to see beyond the drama and find clarity of what is the deeper roots of the conflict. It doesn’t react but find a space of inner peace and  reflections about the drama. The Universe seems to recreate situations  that have the same root issues as long as this is not recognized and dealt with, this cycle will be brought to our attention in many different forms or events. Open your heart even if it breaks, because the truth will set us free. When we hold unto pain, brokenness and heartaches,  we lose the power of love.

Validating our feelings and clearly seeing what we ache for,  are the same feelings and dreams that we have when we were children. We are all longing for true love, understanding, caring, belonging and kindness that we matter and that we are love for being who we are and not for we are not. This is loving unconditionally when we receive love because of what we can’t change, what we can’t give or do but who we are regardless of our mistakes and flaws. We are love because we are ourselves and accepted for our existence and presence. It is a gift to love and something that we should cherish. Let us treasure our inner child and be the playmate forever. We are true children of God and that will never change. We are eternal souls for ever in awe of this magnificent creations for us to experience true love and awesome sou journeys.

Blessings!

This path that I traverse is not an easy road, everyone who surrounds and see me in my “raptures” will no doubt put me in this label of Mental illness. I don’t blame them for they can only comprehend so much and the state of mysticism is not their take. They usually feel that you are losing grip on reality and the only way to help is to put you on drugs and diagnose with mental illness. I have nothing against medical Doctors, but for me life is not going to be base on assumptions or labels such as these, it is what it is.

A mystic is someone who have divine intimacy with God, the person goes through inner communications with God, forgetting the external world and gets consume with God’s messages, like a download of wisdom from the divine connections. Knowing that this is divine intervention, the person loses touch temporarily within the aspects of once outer life. The family who witnessed such a phenomena does not comprehend these raptures as they are not mystics and will feel insecure and fearful that their loved one is losing it, they presume that the medical doctors will be enough for these interventions. As a result, the interventions bring in resentments, fear, anger and pain for both parties. The mystic feels that no body can understand, isolated and rejected. The family on the other hand feels hopeless, angry, insecure and would rather run away from the situation than facing what transpires within the family dynamics.

Therefore, there is relationship issues, broken hearts and miscommunication between two parties but truly for me I would rather stay true to myself. I can not be who they think I am other than what I feel and experience at the moment of intimate divine connections. These raptures that I go to is quite an amazing gift to be able to grasp this wisdom that they are giving and for me to receive such gifts is quite a humbling experience. I ask God why me and the answer is because “you have a pure heart and a child like disposition” I never look at life and see others as separated from me be it a homeless, sick, prostitute, or anyone per say I look eat them with the eyes of compassion,. I can not judge for God is my judge.

I was given a life review at the last rapture that I had and it was quite a revelation and liberating ecstasy that I felt. For once and for all I believe this is the path that I’m going to take. The path of least resistance for whatever reason I am now moving forward with this given lifetime. Not to have excuses for others concept of me but to be able to face the fear of the unknown and say to to my Creator that I did my best.  For all the gifts God had given me I’m receiving them heartily and sharing all back to you who listens and whose ears and hearts are open.

This is the time to lose your ego and live with the open and vast space of your hearts. We are being called to be the masters of our lives. There is no more time to lose but act accordingly to which you are being called. We faces many trials and tribulations but our attention should be in the loving kindness that God always shower us. The destruction and fear based mentality that we have are not from him but from the accumulated karmic cycles that we have done. We will be ask to face our own fears and it’s up to you if you are going to pave the way to truth and freedom of spirit.  We can only take responsibility for our own thoughts, words and deeds, the rest of humanity will be in the fallen grace of God when the right time comes. The massive death that this generation is experiencing is due to these Karmic accumulation debts that I’m speaking about. The more you create pain for others the more debts you pay at the end, may it be in other form or so. You are always contributing to this Akashic field, the substance of everything. All the conscious and unconscious thoughts and actions that you give or take.

As we face the changing times, we will be accelerated to ascension of all that is. Our bodies will be light, energetically aligned to the divine codes and fulfilling our souls purpose. The ultimate Artist and Creator is here living within us, Christed selves, our higher selves are aligned to the other multidimensional selves we are partaking as we live in this dimensions that anchor us in to the loving arms of Gaia. Everyone in each and many ways are partaking in this accelerated shift of our paradigm, perceptions and actions. Wakening to these prophesy of what to come, we are ask to take lightly what has these negative energies had given us complete distractions, heaviness, darkness, separation, fear, pain and lower vibratory frequency.

We are ask to focus our attention to those that are making a difference in this darkened world of yours. Take inventory of your thoughts, words and deeds and locate those that are not of light and create love and joy. Shine to others what is given to you, for they are not yours to keep but for the freedom of our bondages from the enemy of light. We are bigger than what we think we are, truly amazing times are here. As you endeavor in this new Earth the path of a spiritual warrior, you will always be protected, guided and placed among the angels because you are loved and will always be in the book of Life.

Wake up my angels and bring forth the gifts of love. Take your place in this realm and move forward with your blue light penetrating all beings that will be in touch with your chosen path. The healing of humanity is in your hands and walk this path with the flow of love and grace. The dreams that you always hold in your heart will be open for all to nourish, comfort the sick, weep with sorrowful, have mercy to all beings, forgive your enemies, transform the world that you live in by being the essence of love and don’t judge for you are defining your self as the one who judges but instead send love  and light to those who judged you. May the light of God that shines forth may bring you life that is enlightened, full of love and peace.

Namaste!

Butterflies are beautiful creatures that remind me of my loved ones who had passed away from this physical realm which we call the third dimension. They symbolized their own transformations like the caterpillars, who go through these metamorphic transformations to reach this heightened beauty of a butterfly, it is a miracle itself to witness this change. Our loved ones are like these butterflies when they take their last breathe of life and give  it freely to the Creator, the Source of thy Divine breathe of life.

My past experiences with the other realms that I tapped into, confirms to me that this lifetime will be full of zest and passion for love. It is like having a Divine’s appointment, being deeply embedded within this majestic heart warming bright light that envelops me and my fleeting soul soaring like a seagull flying across the blue ocean of life. I love this feeling of unconditional love and listening to God’s calling for my name, but then I stop and realized how I love my lifetime here with my beloved family and friends that I’m not ready yet to leave them. I actually made a deal and say that I just wanted to have more times spend with love and pave the way for them in their journeys to light. I know it’s quite difficult for others to understand how in the world I get to be this way. I truly believe that we are all going to see our life reviews when your time is up and you will be the one to answer for all the things that you had said and done. You are accountable and responsible for all the things that you created.

As a guide for those who are going through these last stages of their life, the first thing to acknowledge is that we are all going through this pathway weather we like it or not. When we are born, we are closer to our death. The hardest thing for people to do is to let go, the attachment and  fear of the unknown. Once the person has accepted and allowed that this is the flow where he or she is heading then one has put a space in the midst of suffering and fear that everything will be taken care of when they crossed over. They somehow feel relieved that the responsibilities that they are carrying when they are alive will be lightened so to speak and all the rest of the members of the family will be taken care of when they are gone. Usually, a father or mother archetype will be doing this and helping them realized that their existence is not about their roles that they choose to play, they will be relieved of such a burden or chip on their shoulders. They are now free from emotional and mental heaviness that they are carrying. Then, they begin to really see death as a gateway to another space and eternal time.

When you crossed over there is no time and space, you are atune to all that is. We are ascending in this sense that our souls are remembering where we came from and that we are all from this Source or Creator of our lives. We are co creators and when we align to this Divines code as I call it, the clarity and wisdom that you gather are all encompassing of this Divine teachings or Universal laws that we tapped into. The Universal Laws of life is about love and forgiveness, we flow with the Divine Source of love and when we align ourselves in this energetic guidance and teachings from whom we are called to follow, our mastery in life is reached and we have ascended in our Christed selves or higher selves as others will feel to call it. We are all one in this Universal energy, we come from one Source and we will all go back to that Source of Love and Light.