The raptures that I experienced as a mystic are quite an out of this world experiences so to speak, I literally leave my body and feel that my soul had left this realm. I can hear all the voices or the participants that are around me yet I can not talk, or move beyond this realm that I’m tapping into. My eyes start to move as in REM movements, there is a bright light that connects to me and shows that I’m in connection with the Divine.

My life review is being revealed and all the things that I’ve said or done are being shown in this synopsis of my lifetime. I had a life review, then I was put in a limbo as “on hold” and waits for my reply, I asked to be back and told the Divine that I need to have more times to spend with my loved ones and children, things that I needed to do and serve to be a bridge for them to love and learn more in this dimension.

I’m back and opened my eyes, I’m here, then more things happen that I needed to learn. One thing leads to another, then for some reason mental health becomes an issue when things get out of hand. When I have these visions, raptures and dreams I get out of control and believe that I’m still in “heaven” then my family panics and fear that I’m loosing it they literally bring me to the Mental Hospital because that’s the only way they can put a label to these manifestations that are happening to me. They can not accept that their mother, had gifts of Divine connections but mainly scared of my own sanity.

Why do I think this way? I now know that because of my separation from this realm when I passed away when I was two my spirit splits or leaves when I’m in kind of trauma or stressful situations. This is how I handle problems and then, I become defensive about this split or separation and makes a big deal about trying to prove my sanity. There is really nothing to prove but be me and what I have to affer this world. “I now declare to the Universe that I manifest full time creation of my higest potential, to be free from all attachments, entanglements and blockages that temporarily stops me from being in the flow of the Universal energy. Be it done!”

You will feel freedom and liberation, when ever you know from heart and soul that you are connected to the Divine essence of who you are. Not too many people are gifted this way, my vibrations are quite light and it’s all about love and forgiveness. There is always a space for unconditional love, whenever you choose to be this space for others to reach this light frequency. There are a lot of teachers of love and light but you will be the master of your own lifetime right here and now. We come here to manifest and experience this love that comes from the heart and soul.

Our higher selves are being aligned whenever we become like little children full of innocence and pure untainted hearts. There are lots of knowledge and wisdom that one can experience in this lifetime but the most important part of this journey is about love, did you look, speak or share love with others as yourself as the Divine? Questions that will bring you back to the soul expression that you want to happen anytime now. As you read these words of wisdom may I instill in you the beauty of love, the love that comes from the bottom of your heart and soul. The wellspring of words that comes from the mouths of babes, like little children I see the vision of “heaven on Earth” we are like these babes, open our mouths and eyes to these beauty and see the heaven that is bestowed upon us.

More responsibilities are given to those who receives, as you received these gifts of knowing you will also be asked to share and give back to those who are hungry for the words of wisdom and love. You are who you are because of your evolution, your soul is pure and untainted as your heart is being purified in the fire of Divine interventions that are currently being placed into your energetic fields of love and light. The expressions of your essence, your crystal clear and purified higherself, the Divine you and always being align to your energetic imprints of who you are. The Divine consciousness that you embody more as you awaken, tone into the Divine essence that you are. As you perceive the Divine essence of who you are, you will be experiencing more alignments, awareness of who you truly are, awakenings to the magnificence of your soul and atonement into the vibrations of your essence.

Going with the flow of life, not resisting what is given and what is being shown in your plate is totally the guide or direction where you needed to be. As you locate your higher selves to infuse your Divine connection to whatever you are going through, you will be align to embody this higher consciousness that you are tapping into. As I question my self why do I need to be here? I also ask myself what I needed to learn from here? It is quite an eye opener for me to see that everything is for a higher purpose, I need to pass through this once again to confirm to myself that everything passes away.

We are self empowered, life is not about managing illness or labels that was given to you but to surpass and transcend these into your being, consciousness, cellular memories, and infused the Divine codes and assist in this transformation that has to take place in order for you to share this understanding with others. How in the world will you be able to help others if you can not transcend these labels that are given to you. You need to update all these consciousness memories seen and unseen to these vibrations of love and light. When you allow these to happen, you become a beacon of light and love. You shine with the brightest light, giving and receiving all the manifestations of Divine connections. You are the rapture of love that God wants to share with you in this Divine lifetime for whatever reasons, you have forgotten about. It’s time to wake up and be in touched with this Divine essence, be the co creator of God’s love for you and others.

Have you heard of this latest diagnosis regarding caregivers who get exhausted from giving too much…hmmm I know myself tend to do that so here I am putting myself first. Nurses needs to learn this lesson sometimes the hard way but it’s never too late. After weeks of dealing with residents having difficulty with Mental illness, death with family and violence @ work I found myself in DEAD ZONE where I had no energy left to even help myself.

It is a rude awakening to lose your BALANCE it’s all about this..whatever you do you need to center yourself and find your balance in whatever action you’re going to do. It was a shock how I can lose my balance when everything in my inner world was all about PEACE and MEDITATION. But as I take problems as an opportunities to become a better person or be in a better place, once again I took this as one of my LESSONS to LEARN.

These are the steps to keep your BALANCE:

1. Keep your routine! things that you do to keep your self sane! for me it’s meditation and yoga stretch in the morning. Writing as I go through my day.

2. Listen to your EMOTIONS, when you find yourself overwhelm with other peoples problems it’s a sign that you are trespassing others field. Meaning keep your COOL!

3. Watch for physical symptoms such as INSOMNIA that means you are not @ PEACE with your self. Mind, body and spirit when align keeps you in a SOUND SLEEP.

4. Feel your BODY, if you’re not doing exercise everyday you are forgetting your vehicle to BALANCE. A sound body and a sound mind keeps the Dr away.

5. LOVE your SELF FIRST! then you can love others. Caregivers tend to put themselves the last on the list. They like to rescue but they forget to help themselves.

Hope these simple pointers will help other rescuers like me! nice and sweet today nothing airy fairy! the angel is grounded I would stay being a nurse…and if someone needs an angel I can also be one.

Namaste,

Teza

What are the signs that you are not in tune with your highest self? Are you feeling drained and negative toward yourself or others? You forget who you are about? These are real signs that you are not living in the present moment. First, ask what are your thoughts about? then you will connect why you are feeling this way. The thoughts are powerful and when you are not aware where they are, you become a victim of unconsciousness. Being conscious you have to constantly become in tune and aware of where your mind, body and spirit is right now. When we get distracted of our regular stuff that comes our way, we forget to connect to our highest self. Living spirituality in a physical dimension is quite a challenge and every moment serves us realities where we are in this dimension.

Realizing I’m out of tune, connected my self in meditation. I found the answer to this misalignment. When surrounded by all these people from work, home and the world I found my self lost in their world. Before I can be in tune, I need to see my self in a different space of negative situations. Then I concur that where I am is where my thoughts are. I found that I was swayed from one situation to another. Being centered I found my self back. Where it brings me back to that space of silence and peace. This is who I am, the stillness in the midst of chaos. But I will only know when I become aware of my thoughts. My thoughts create my reality and this is where I am. The observer is connected to the experience, who am I without this observer? A body, without a spirit? The wisdom is being connected to the observer and become one with my body, mind and spirit.

This connection brings about this positive energy and create a wonderful meaning to my life and others that touches me. Every being that comes to me feel the love that I have within my heart for humanity. My life becomes a beautiful book that I want to create, let go of the past painful experiences that I had and live one day at a time living my highest self. You create whatever is in your plate, you also have the power to choose what you’re going to put in that plate. The universal law of cause and effect, my choices will reflect these things that is within me and my external realities.

Live, love and laugh! There is nothing worst than finding out that you’re in your death bed and it just occurs to you that you have not live your life with love and laughter. The relationships that you have are the most important things in life. Cherish who you have and what you have. Our treasures are made of these feelings that we are loved and we love. Bring out your best self and know that your positive energy heals and help others in finding themselves as well. Lighten up and snapped out from the small self.

What a day of interrogation! I knew that I was facing another day of hell but prior to this day of inquiry I wasn’t even preparing myself for what is going to transpire because I knew it’s going to be hell and all I have to do is face it. Allowing what is in my plate right now, there’s no need to worry and let it be. I learned to live my life this way, I become the observer of my realities. But what is the truth? Is it the external reality or is it the observer of this drama that is real? The one who is in question is here but the one who is observing the drama is inside of you which is your consciousness. So who is the observer and the one who is answering the questions. I truly believe I am a part of this consciousness and what I’m projecting is what I’m feeling inside. So in order to live a life where there is unconditional love I have to love my own self with no conditions. To reach this enlightenment I had to be conscious of my participation of this drama and be able to recognize my truth which is love.

The lessons that I learn in this life is about loving myself first without the picture perfect image that I want others to think that I am. When truly my truth is beyond this image which is ego. My truth is that I am love without trying to be good or portraying that I am a good girl. Somehow there was a twisted belief that came from the painful past of incest, all my life I was trying to prove to the world that I am a good girl, that I have no anger and I was in total denial that my self was violated and in a disguise. I painted a picture of my life that I’m all about good not bad. Who can explain this to someone who is inside this pain and protected herself with this thick shell of shame? This is the voice of the victim and I’m not a victim anymore. I can see beyond this drama and I let go of these sufferings and become aware that I am responsible for my happiness.

These excavations remind me of my victorious journey to my new path. There is no limitations to what I can be and what I want to create. This starts when I learn to love my self unconditionally.That when I heal myself I heal my world and the people that I touch. This is the freedom from this illusion. I’m playing a big part in this consciousness when I become who I am which is just be. My being is here and the presence of my self is enough without trying to be someone. There is no separation and duality but only oneness, we are all in this play. Are we going to choose love or fear? It is your birthright to know the true meaning of your existence, no more excavations, the treasure is found that is your true self. The gem in this world that we claim and play, let’s remind ourselves where we came from and return home to that space of love and truth.