This letter was written when I was asked to write something for my aborted child in a book that was published for aborted babies in the Christian community. Out of the blue I got a letter from someone that they want a letter for my aborted baby and this transpired.

Thirty three yrs ago, I lost the chance of having you because of unfortunate choices that my family made in my young life of fifteen. Although, it wasn’t my choice to lose you, my body was the vehicle of your death and felt a great sense of grief, guilt and responsibility for this hideous murder. Looking back I really don’t know how I stayed sane through the course of my lifetime. As you know your brothers and sister had kept me going through all the years. They gave me the chance to be a good mother, which I never had with you. Losing you made me a better person and realized that I have the voice to reach out to those women who are experiencing the same agony. To give hope where there is doubt and to bring light where there is darkness. You taught me the greatest thing of all which is love.

I’ve been writing about us and never really thought of writing to you until this calling was made. This is the first time that I truly communicated with you. I don’t know how or what I’m going to tell you but I’m doing it anyway. You are my sweet angel and always watching over me and your siblings. In your world there is so much love that I can hardly wait to be there. All my life I wanted to be with you but I guess I still have some work to do here. I believe things happen for a reason and in God’s hands I surrender my life.

Jasmine, I’m truly sorry for not haviing you and for my family’s action of abortion. I can’t bring back the past and all I have now is the present moment. I want you to know that even though I lost you, that you are always in my heart and soul. Everytime I see and smell flowers I’m reminded of you and your beauty in my life. Can you imagine that out of a dreadful experience I will bear fruits of healing, love, hope, faith, joy, forgiveness, surrender, serenity and peace? These are the gifts that you brought into my heart and I thank you for forgiving and allowing me to be your mother in spirit.

Love is timeless and boundless. My love for you is as real as here and now. It leaps through space and time. It is eternal and bliss. Thank you for your presence and love that I feel in my heart. There is nothing in this world that would make my life completely perfect until that time when you take my hand and meet me there in the gateway of heaven.

I love you with my heart and soul.

Mommy Teza

The Mystic Archetype dwells with the Divine within and lives symbolically in the material world we call Earth.The challenge is to balance and how to walk the mystical path with practical feet and living in between worlds of materialism and spirituality. Grounding is an important factor to transcend this archetypal blueprint template. There is a borderline between insanity or madness because when you are in your “ecstasy” you are not in touch with your present reality. You are one in communal with God and you seem to lose touch with your present moment.

The personal challenge for me is when my family members don’t understand what a mystic is and assume that they know everything about you. They want their peace of mind so they want you to take a “magic pill” that will clear them of their own fear . Their fears is actually about them, it is the fear of letting go with control and attachments. They want everything to be in control and balance so when they see you in your “ecstasy” they are scared that they will lose you and their lives will be in chaos. But actually it’s their own world that they can’t manage because they can’t accept the fact that their own mother is a mystic and should not be justified by any medical community that there is something wrong with her.

This is the illusion that humanity needs to accept that a mystic is simply longing to be left alone with the Divine time in her private reclusion or retreat. Let her be, as long as she doesn’t harm herself. They feel more rejected by the world when their own family members, co workers, friends give them a label that they are insane. Who really knows what sanity is? When is the world going to wake up? We continually live in sham and drudgery, the mystics know they are not insane but the society doesn’t give them credibility for these beautiful gifts of unconditional love. They seem to recognize the insanity of the mystics because they are afraid of their own darkness and shadows. It is living outside your box in order to make room for the mystics.

To see and feel the pain of the mentallly challenged patients in the Mental Institution because there is no one there to care and truly listen to their broken hearts is quite an awakening experience. We need to wake up as one collective consciousness to be aware that our world is not cut out for everyone. We have all different gifts and voices to be heard in the midst of our dark nights. We have the birthright to voice our true spirit and longings of our souls, where no one dares to thread. I am the voice of a mystic that truly feels the pain and sufferings of being ridiculed, judged and labeled. Enough is enough. We need to voice and see the beautiful gifts of the mystics outside the monasteries. We are here, to serve our humanity elevate their consciousness and become one with the Divine Source of everything. We are all one, children of God whatever God means for you.

Forgiveness is the foundation of healing, when we forgive we create a space of unconditional love and grace. The pathway to oneness is connected through this force, without this bridge we will not achieve inner peace and global peace. As we forgive others for what they did to us, we literrally transcend our vibrations and start to attract more unconditional love and blessings to our lives. The power of this action is beyond measure, there is a rippling effect that happens when we choose to do this. We magnify our existence and manifest lovely experiences in our lifetimes. We learn to let go of the past, pain and heal our cellular memories and consciousness.

The Universe will surely test and give us more situations that will trigger more unforgivenes, until we truly get the lesson behind this situation which is unconditional love. The hidden gem is all about our love for ourselves. If we truly love ourselves, we will not allow thoughts that will harm us in anyway. When we withold love, we create lower vibration that are emotions like guilt, anger, revenge, resentment, anxiety, within our consciousness and thus create stress in our health and being. We become hard on ourselves and we create an armor around our hearts. Our hearts become a perfect ground to breed unwanted feelings and negative emotions. These emotions ruts in our hearts and our souls are stuck in this darkness. We become victims of our own consciousness and when this happen we are separated from our Source. The Source is about love, unity and harmony. We are not here to experience pain and sufferings but to be in the space of love and grace.

We forget who we are, we are spiritual beings in our human suits, all of our dramas are our own creations because we attract who we are inside our hearts. When we see beyond our pain and see the bigger picture we will know that we are all in the same boat. That we experience all these situations in different forms, the question is do we ever get the lessons that we are trying to learn? We all have conscious choices to make in this lifetime, to live a happy life or to be stuck in this negative situation within ourselves and others. Let us wake up and take responsibility for the state of our consciousness.

Blaming others for our state of mind is not going to help us in the present moment. Like the bite of a snake, the bite is long gone but we still suffer the venom of the snake’s bite. We are caught in the poison of the snake, this is the venom of this unforgiveness path. We create more pain by holding this crooked path in our existence. The garden of our hearts is like a landscape, we need to weed out bad weeds like ill feelings and grudges in order to reap good fruits in our harvest. Forgiving the past is not easy but when we want to move forward, we choose to forgive then let go of the past. Focus on your chosen path and follow your heart. This is the return to home, your heart is where your home is.

This is our Sacred Contract, to be with this certain person to experience pain and forgiveness. In the bigger picture, without this situation we are not going to learn the lesson of forgiveness. When we start to see things as is and send blessings to the enemy so to speak, we find this inner peace deep within our hearts. We feel light and we are in the space of grace and Divine’s love. Only through these dark nights of our souls we can achieve true forgiveness and learn the lesson. If we keep denying our own pain and blaming others for how we feel, we will just go in a circle of drama and we keep attracting the same situation with different actors so to speak.

We transcend our pain by forgiving and letting go of this negative karma, we allow the space and power of healing our hearts. We become co creator of our lovely and happy experiences. We choose to empower ourselves and allow our selves to expand into this beautiful creation of God whatever God means for you. We learn to trust the flow of love into our experiences and we become happier in our existence when we connect to the Akashic Records of our souls. This is the secret path to tap into the Akashic Records. We can not touch this when we have unforgiveness in our existence because the heart of our human collective consciouseness is in the realm of our souls. We can only go through the high vibrations of our souls when we connect to the Source of our existence. Our souls vibrate in the frequency of love and light and we have to be align and congruent with our souls in order to have access to the Akashic Records. People are mistaken if they think that you have to be smart in order to access your Akashic Records, it’s actually the heart that needs to be pure to access this high frequency of vibration of love and light. God sees us beyond our mind’s perceptions, but within our heart’s lies the wisdom of our Source. This is the path of our return to home, where love is. There is no sense in holding pain, anger and resentment in our existence because we only give ourselves a more difficult path to thread to.

Let us forgive ourselves first in order to experience true forgiveness for others. We don’t need to be with them but to allow the space of grace and love within our being. It creates a new pattern of experiences and we become more align to manifest our dreams in this lifetime. Let us live in the present moment consciously choosing to forgive. ” I now declare to the Universe and Source that I’m forgiving others who consciously or unconsciously had hurt me in the past and I also ask others to forgive me for hurting them consciously or unconsciously through my thoughts, words and actions, let it be done. May the flow of grace and love be with me in this lifetime. Amen.”

The virgin archetype is quite an interesting one, you would think this has to do with virginity only but actually it has more issues than that. Archetypes are not only about physical expression, it is also energetic and there are many ways that they manifest. This archetype touch the collective consciousness and in the temple days the ladies are actually not virgin but they consider themselves as virgin because nobody can control them, they are in control. The truth that is hidden in this archetype is about power and control, not only of their virgin territories, virgin ideas or thoughts, their sexuality on how they want to be in control, to prevent them from having an intimate union with another person.

It’s almost to the detrimental of having fear about their own bodies and feelings of guilt that they are not perfect and not good enough to be with someone. It creates an illusion that they are in control of their bodies but it actually becomes an escape for intimacy. They become dependent of the need for approval of their bodies and they want the illusion that they are in control of their temple and that this will make them become respected by others. It is an ego in a form of control of their bodies. The obsession of the body and control is the shadow of this archetype and it can be transcended once the person becomes aware of the energetic component of this archetype.

Looking through the temple of their bodies, they carry the separation from others on how they intimately see and feel the world. The Virgin archetype has an intense inner focus. She is spiritually orientated and more concerned with the inner world than the outer world. She is now making a come back as women everywhere are beginning to follow their own hearts and dreams to manifest a reality other than that of partnerships, motherhood and child rearing. Often they are unmarried, but this did not mean that they were necessarily asexual. In fact, some of the virgin goddesses expressed their sexuality openly, owning their sexuality proudly and without shame. It was not given away or bartered or owned by their partners, it was wholly and solely within their dominion.

The union of body and spirit is not experience due to hiding behind the shadow of this virgin archetype. One has to realized that they need to have balance and intimate union with their own self to know that this can be transcended and learn the spiritual lesson of this archetype to fully function and become intimate with another soul. You have to know the fragmented parts of your archetypes that you are afraid to face or learn. Everything is about evolution and power, the path to finding the positive in the negative shadow of your archetypes will help you in learning the soul’s purpose. Every soul is different and you have to personalize the lesson and ask yourselves series of questions to help you figure out what is the lesson behind this archetype. Aks things that you are afraid of facing, what are your fears? what are the things that you are called to do and not to do? What is the pattern of this archetype? What can I do to help myself transcend this archetype and learn the lesson? It is about discovering your archetypal energy and how you can transcend them into positive light to help yourself become wholesome and bring light to your shadows.

“I declare to the Universe that I’m a co creator of my empowered life and I take full responsibility for everything that comes to me acknowledging my truth, inner strength, loving, forgiving and peaceful soul co creating this tapestry of my abundant life. Be it done!”

This archetype is not only about sexuality but it’s actually more about spirituality and how one stays in a relationship or situation that sells their spirit short. It’s usually when one doesn’t want to leave a comfort zone and thinks that survival is the easiest way to live this world. Most of married women are actually carrying these Archetypal energy. When they are not happy in their partnerships but feel they have to stay because of their survival.

Self empowerment is a gift, knowing your prostitute archetype is a tool when you can transcend this energy. One realizes that the spirit is more important than all of these material stuff and dependency that we surround ourselves with. What’s important is the relationships that are loving and truthful, when we stop denying and pretending that we are happy with the other person or situations that we are involve with. We open oourselves to honest, peaceful and loving relationships with our own self and others.

What makes a person to sell his spirit short? The root of this is fear of the unknown, when you are afraid to be who you are, you attract this fear and creates a shadow that blinds you to your truth, which is your spirit or light. When one is in the survival mode and can not find the inner strength to live the truth. It is an illusion of your true self, denying the power that resides within you. You are afraid to become big and empowered. One finds inner strength and becomes a true peaceful warrior of the light when he realizes that his inner spirit is more important to materialism. It doesn’t only involve materials it can also becomes a dependency to relationships that are harmful to your soul’s evolution.

This archetype teaches you to find your voice, to know your true self which is your spirit. When you align the mind with your heart you create the authenticity of your soul. Becoming conscious of your choices, that every single choice that we make will affect everything in our present moment. Finding your voice or self expression that will lead to your highest potential and highest good. You become open to what is and create expansion in your existence. You live outside the box and connect to your soul’s purpose. You enlighten your mind in all aspects of your attachments with materials and others. You become a free spirit.You thrive in all of those that you touch, with endurance, integrity and honor code that you make between you and your God whoever is your God.

The truth is about discovering your self and knowing what you truly desires and living your soul’s purpose. The situation is here to serve you to see the bigger picture of your life. When you shift your perspective this way, you use the situation to help and empower you to become who you are suppose to be. Use it like a compass in finding your inner strength. Forgive those who have harmed you and surrender to the Divine calling of your life. You have so many graces to receive when you face your challenges and honor your integrity. When you meditate and clear your emotional fields one can find inner peace with the situation. It helps to be at peace and it’s useless to blame anyone for where you are at because this situation happens to help you find your truth and it doesn’t help you if you are stuck in blaming others. Take the responsibility for yourself because you are always a co creator of anything that comes to you.

Miracles take place when you surrender everything to God, love is the only true power that we have. Everything else is an illusion. When your heart is open, you open your life to all the possibilities that you want to experience. Trusting and having that leap of faith that everything that happens is for all the good of those who follow the will of God. We are just instruments in this lifetime, we are ask to see beyond illusions and become conscious of our creations. See the gifts that you have inside and follow your heart. The wisdom lies inside this heart that beats as one. One with the Universal flow of life and connects to the Universal Mind of God.

The ability to heal this prostitute archetype is know where and what is the pattern of your disempowerment. When you discover the truth and accept that you have been going through this energy of selling short your spirit, you will find some light in the areas that you need to acknowledge where you are stuck. Acceptance is an important factor in healing because you are not stuck in denial, then you can face the truth without shame or guilt. Being hard on yourself is not going to help you but truly, being kind and compassionate towards yourself is the key to freedom of your spirit. Forgiveness for others and forgiving yourself for whatever happend in the past and living in the present moment will transform your mind, body and heart consciousness.

It is time to shift this prostitute to what is our truth with the Universal flow of love and forgiveness between all of us. We all have harmed each other in some ways that we are unconscious. Let us unite our consciousness in one field of love and light. When we shift this separation, we feel connected to the Universal power and we are empowered sentient beings experiencing the Divine flow of love and peace. Together we can make a difference in this world and be a powerful soul family in our evolution to becoming a dynamic, universal, progressive, conscious sentient beings in our planet Earth.