As I write in this space, my heart is heavy and dense. There is a void deep within me that says I’m quite not right. There is a voice that speaks “you’re going to be okay, stay grounded!” You are prepared to experience this and everything will be all right. Receiving a message from my loved ones in the Philippines that my father is in comatose brought me to this condition.

For the last few nights I was dreaming of coffins three days in a row and brushed them off because I didn’t want to pay attention to death. Then the other night I felt there was someone in my room I thought it was my Mom and was asking if I want to see her and I said no it’s okay, I’m not ready. It’s quite surreal now that I look back and all the signs were there. Today I got a kitten from the Animal Rescue and he is home with us his name is Oscar. He is my angel, he purred and slept on my chest last night keeping vigil for my peace.

I looked back to my memories and it’s quite funny how I spent half of my lifetime in this “victim consciousness” without looking at the bigger picture that my souls purpose lies deep within this pain. My father’s contract is bigger than what I think it was for me to learn the lessons of forgiveness and love. Our life lies in this paradox, everything that I learn seems to be the opposite of what I know, it is the lessons from the heart that seems to matter at the end. My knowledge doesn’t complete me and the wisdom that lies from my experiences are the ones that my soul is longing for.

With this perception I learn that my heart matters more than what my brain knows. It is the heart of humanity that energizes my life force, my power and connection to this lifetime. It is the heart after all that beats and pulsates in our physical being that says this is it, you had enough and the end is now. How can we be so blindsided to what matters most in this lifetime?

In letting go I learn to connect to my breathe and just be. My soul is at peace knowing that truly no one dies because our souls are eternal. We lose sight of their physical presence but their spirit is with us. We are one, fragmented mirrors of ourselves. Our lesson here is commitment to experience love, in whatever field we do we are messengers of love. The choice is ours and when we hold to pain we blocked this message, we become attune to fear and no one can reach us. Attaching to  our pain is the biggest stumbling block in our healing. Our perceptions is marred by suffering and we create more pain by attracting this in our fields. We need to open our hearts and bring in the new template of love and letting go of pain. Forgiving our enemies and allowing love to penetrate our cellular memory to heal the wounds that lie deep within us.

There is nothing that you can not forgive, it is the ego that tells you the other way around, listen to your heart not your mind. For the mind is blind and the heart is the path to truth. Release the suffering and celebrate life every moment with your loved ones, strangers and friends. We are only here for borrowed times, nothing is permanent. Take the time to be with your loved ones not in working for material success. Your times well spent with loved ones are the treasures of the heart not the success of this world.

Let go and let God handle my affairs of the heart. My attachments to pain is gone and I allow this experience to rejoice and celebrate the lifetime gift of my Papa to me, I am who I am right now because of him, forgiving and loving soul. To you my Papa I celebrate my life!

BELOVED!

As I write with this flow of energy I remember sitting here and wondering how am I going to be a writer when I didn’t take any courses to be in this flow of energy and now it dawn on me that passion and creativity has nothing to do with your left brain which is where your ego resides, the thinking process. Writing actually has more connection to your right brain which functions are more in the intuition and creativity. Yes, this is what happen when we are in the left brain thinking process, we deny our own inner connection to the Divine creative nature that we inherit from our Divine creator. Coming from a background of a strict religious dogma, I was condition to think less of my self and to bow to the God and its High Priests that we are conditioned to think highly of. Come to think of it if we think less of ourselves then we are basically saying that our Divine creator is not good enough to create us. We have to be happy and proud of ourselves because of our extra ordinary gifts that we have and was given not to be small but to be great bearers of love and light.

HUMILITY is important to connect to humanity but it does not mean that you have to take for granted what you have been given. Do whatever makes you feel happy and connected. Don’t think of what other people would say because at the end it’s between you and your self and your Divine Creator that matters anyway. When I write don’t believe what I say but listen with your heart and mind open, this will help you set the grounds for expansion. Humanity have a lot of beliefs and in our own little world we live in a dream and in this dream that you weave, you are the creator and the writer of your life. When you evolve here on earth, you are in this time of accelerated energy that brings into action all of your fragmented selves in the past, present and future. The ARCHETYPAL ENERGY that you have agreements with in your SACRED CONTRACTS are being played upon on your lifetime.

You wonder if you look at the past “where in the world did I do that for?” for some reason you have completed an incarnation of a sometimes mythic figure like a WARRIOR, GODDESS or ANGEL. There are a lot of contracts that you have signed for and in this physical dimension that you are living, in this third dimensional body that you resides you will be completing all souls contrasts that you signed for. The contracts will not leave your energetic field but they are there to create lessons for your life. When you have completed the contract meaning you already learned the lesson, you somehow evolve and move on to another type of Archetypal energy. As from my own experience, I have lived a life of a Buddhist monk, a nun in the Nursing homes praying for their next step to the other dimension, an angel to others, a Goddess or a Priestess, a strong victim consciousness regarding incest issues, and of course a  wounded healer, teacher and spiritual writer.

When you are awake you become connected to your creations and you ascend to the light and there is no duality or separation between what you see and your inner world. You have grand vision for humanity’s evolution of consciousness and you become a part of this enlightenment and transformation of the EARTH. As our world change, clearing, cleansing of its own natural disturbances, we as humanity goes through the same detoxification process. Our Mother Earth is us, and us mothers and children of this grand illusion or dream, we need to see ourselves as good stewards of our own selves in alignment to our body, mind, heart, spirit and soul. Therefore we become conscious, responsible and accountable people of the planet Earth if we want our existence to stay evolve and connected.

Fear is a part of our evolution process and when we reached the point of FEARLESSNESS we become connected to our own shadows and then light penetrate all darkness in our field of body, mind, heart, and spirit consciousness as one soul or consciousness. I believe that we have reached our final destination in this field of quantum physics, as the scientists are now finding that there is no solution to every equation in the mind field but truly there is a solution in the quantum soup of life when one evolves as one within the one soul. Mind consciousness becomes obsolete because we are far greater than this filed of consciousness. We are one in many bodies, souls and fragmented pictures of our illusion and created beliefs, judgements or anything that we create, we manifest in this realities of life that we call.

Our river of consciousness is overflowing with toxic stuff that we manufacture right from the get go, so our goal now should be directed to cleaning this river of life or consciousness to a fresh start. Clean your mind of negative stuff, live without judgements, be still in the now, save your self by being in sync with nature, silence your mind and go with the flow, listen and open your heart, ask your self ” where am I in my body, mind, heart, spirit and soul?” this will connect you to the Source of life. Be directed to the truth and be aware of illusions and ego. Connect to all your incarnated selves in the now and allow the lessons to penetrate your being and be happy. I am one with you in all your longings and creations, let us fill this Earth with happiness, compassionate wisdom and peace. Your thoughts are great contributions to mankind, think of happy thoughts and we will unite in the heart of all matters.

BELOVED!

Where are we in this collective consciousness? Where are we going in this rate of hatred and fear? Are you feeling loved or empty? Where are you in this evolution or awareness of our mind, body and spirit. The dimensions that we tap brings us the answers to these questions. We are in this magnificent times of our species, the domain that we tap will be bring forth in quite an accelerated rate, when we let go of our illusions, our attachments and ego.

We connect to our spirit and the ego can hardly wait, observing where it will play the tricks that are ready to target you once again when it finds a space in your mind consciousness. We are becoming aware to the games that it plays, by listening and becoming an observer of this entity. Just like leaders of countries who don’t get their way, they resort to manipulation or mind games to get what they want . We are blind folded to these games so we need to be freed from these bondages and chains of illusions.

We need to be able to remove our masks, open our eyes to the truth and discover that we are asleep all along to the deceptions or as I call it is the web or hypnosis that we are in. It is what it is. There are a lot of fear agenda that were instilled in us, since the beginning of Ancient times and we are in this time and space of the now because we want to experience this transition in this multi-dimensional living. We are here to witness a transformation of living light and love reigns. The contacts from the other dimensions are happening and will be exposed to the public so to speak and in speedy time we are being prepare to “lighten up” so to speak. Because of the high frequency of this new energy, our bodies have to go to through these changes and our vibrations will be elevated once we are awaken and aware of these beings that have been here since the beginning of times. Just like the movie AVATAR they are here and we are the ALIENS, it’s difficult to comprehend if you are not initiated in this new way of thinking but it will come once you open the door to this new energy. It will be revealed to you in your own personal experiences and then you become one with all.

The collective consciousness of your existence is what you are experiencing, when there is turmoil in another country it gives you a breakthrough because it creates a ONENESS in helping and being compassionate towards the suffering. It brings cleansing, clearing of the old ways of thinking and becomes united in spirit. It is love after all that unites the humankind and if you are still living in hatred and unforgiveness, it’s time to wake up because it is your choice to either stay in this vibration and feel the consequences or be transform and be in this elevation of human consciousness. There is no more time to lose, we can not emphasized enough that this is it. You will find a lot of things that are changing in your mind, body and spirit. You will undergo trials, sufferings and letting go of attachments to the point of even losing your loved ones. But this will not stop you from ascending and becoming the love that you are. The people that you had lost had finished their soul contracts, which is to open up your heart and connect to your spirit.

When you are in the spirit, you have no fear then you will be able to see us in a different way. There will be no boundary, separation we are all one. We have been living, guiding, teaching humanity to be light and explore the magnificent treasures that our civilization had created and will always continue creating with you as we speak. There is no time and space in this dimension, we are living in multi-Universes and our consciousness and yours reached this unity when you are vibrating in this higher frequency. In able to connect to us, we help you to release all the tensions, unresolved karmic issues, mind games that your Reptilian mind plays, separation and duality modality, fear and anxiety to say the least there are a lot of stuff that needs to be shaken off just like a dog removing its fleas.

The more you are aware of your vibrations the closer you are communicating with us. Just like a radio frequency you will tune in our station once you are open and ready. Grounding is important when you are a channel for this will take care of your body as your vehicle to receive this information and become one in your passionate way of living. Your body is sacred just like your words and actions, so be impeccable with what you do, say and think they have vibratory frequency just like any living being that surrounds you. Be open to these new teachings and you will live in this multi-dimensional space that you tap. The choice is yours then release anything that gives you anxiety because you are powerful more than you think you are. There is magnetic force and power behind, around, front and back surrounding you in this energetic field that creates this magnetism to all that you are inside your being.

Once you are done with clearing and cleansing stage you will be ready to set a space for this new energy to sustain you. You will become more connected to every living being that surrounds you. You will see others in a different light, even though they are not awake to bring in light and compassion towards those who are asleep. The “I” becomes “WE” and you are uniting not only to those around you as well as to the other entities that are in your space. When your heart, and eyes are open to his new paradigm shift they will reveal themselves once again and you will see them with “friendly eyes” they will not be ALIENS but FRIENDS to you because you can see them now in a different light. Your frequency is the same as them then there is no more fear of not knowing. This is what stops you in seeing the truth, the fear of the unknown. Because you are connected to the vast information that you tap into, you will not anymore have these low vibrations in your being. You finally realized that there is no difference and no shadow because there is only love and light in this new dimension. You create this dimension just like heaven you create this in your realities, you have the key to this dimension when you let go of your little self and not knowing that when you become little is when you actually become bigger in this field of dreams. Your are the dream weaver, weave a a beautiful life connecting to the truth and love that you tap. Letting go of the past, living in the now and together you will connect and tap into your infinite sources and create what you want your future to be by living in the present and truly enjoying your lives.

BELOVED!

What are your focused intentions? These are goals that you want to achieve in this lifetime. We need to breakdown these goals into steps that are realistic in order to see these dreams to manifest, and allow the results to come without attaching expectations to the outcome. That is the beauty of this life, when we do our best and see the result what the Universe brings us even though sometimes it’s not what we want to happen but we get caught by surprise on what we receive. Believe that whatever you receive is what you needed at the right time and at the right moment.

This is what I call allowing and going with the flow of life. Our guides in this flow is our emotions when we feel good, we are in the right track and when we resist our emotions obviously we are negative, these are signs that we are vibrating in this lower frequency. We have to catch ourselves to remind us that we need to be easy and follow what our heart is saying to us. Sometimes we learn the hard way and we are stubborn to listen to our guides, we just go on our own blinded ways and create more fear and chaos in our lives than harmony and peace.

In my journey I find that my most painful experiences are the actually the ones that helped me become a better person. Because of them I become de-hypnothized from my illusions and self-realized that everyone is one in spirit. The pain that I felt is the same pain that anyone in this world suffered from so I’m not any one special from anybody because of this. I become non- judgemental and developed a compassion for humanity because simply I felt their pain within my painful experiences.

My soul’s purpose is to help heal, inspire and uplift other lost souls just like me to bring them joy, unconditional love and bliss in their well being. Integrating their shadows and light attributes to be able to fulfill their own soul’s purpose in its highest potential. It’s not easy to be lost in the dark but when there is a guide you will find it easier to thread along in the river of life.

The guidance is listening to your own heart that dictates what and where you want to be. Listen and find time for your self. This is the most important thing that you can do for your self, it’s not the things that you think are important but the love and time that you develop for your self. This will create abundance, joy and good health when you take the time to reflect on where you are in this field. There is nobody who will take care and love you so start loving yourself by spending more time and making your self a priority.

Going back to your focused intention I would conclude that it is your self that should be your focus and not others, you have to start with your self to be able to give to others. We can’t give when we don’t feel abundant, when we don’t love our own selves we can’t totally share our selves because we are coming from rescuing others without being wholesome ourselves. To be able to serve we have to start with our selves, love and totally connect to our spirit.

Let us find forgiveness for our mistakes in life. Remember that these are not mistakes but LESSONS that we want to learn to be a better person. When we look at our own shadows as intricate part of our lives to be able to transcend we have to be able to let go and let our light shine upon this darkness. I now believe that there is nothing that we can do in this lifetime, if we become align to our soul’s purpose. We magnetized the things or situations that we want to attract. We are the creators of these intentions and we call upon the energy of love to unite us in this magnificent lifetime.

We are being called to be the MASTERS of our selves. When we master our selves we create a beautiful life filled with hope, laughter, and unconditional love. We may not get everything we want but we will be filled with light and love within our hearts, that the other things don’t matters anymore and will become illusions. We know deep within our selves that our spirit means more than anything this world can give us. In the end what matters is what touched our hearts not what others think of us. Be brave take your intentions into full action and fill your lives with love for that day will come when you can say to your self I made it with my fullest and highest intention to live this life with my dreams come true! Dream big for your life is bigger than whatever you can imagine of.

Namaste,

Teza

These are the questions that reached my mind today and I ask myself where am I today in my thoughts? We are so busy with our mind that we forget we are here in this beautiful body, physically here, not there or somewhere else. Where is your attention? when I ask this, it brings me back to focus. This is where we get lost most of the times. When we wander through life without this focused attention we get lost by the mundane things in life. So in order to create what we want in this reality that we call life we need to focus our attention, meaning we need to shift our vibration, since it is going to be our vibrations, or emotions, that will bring us back to our senses, if we are on the right track.

We get lost in our emotions and mental projections so we get derailed off our guided path. Our guidance is our high vibrations, meaning our positive emotions, which are positive feelings that bring us love and light not fear or darkness. We have to go through a process call integration which unites our shadow and light attribute. When we integrate these in our selves we find humility because we realize that we are all the same. When we become united with our own darkness we become a light to those who are lost just like us!

What are the signs that you are lost? When you are in the middle of drama and ask why am I here? what attracted me to this situation? where am I right now? when you find yourself judging others and believing that you are right and they are wrong in their choices, you are lost once again. The primary lesson is to be a light and share love, not judgements or separation. That is not easy especially when you have this healer archetype, you almost believe that you know everything but you don’t. This is where I am right now, the more I know the less I know. The Universe brings me back to the source which is love not fear. When I don’t judge others’ mistakes I’m saying to the Source that I acknowledge and respect the flow of life, and the only way for the other person to learn is through his or her own mistakes. I’m one with the Tao!

What I realized is that to be a master is to be a master of everything and nothing. For all those knowledge that I’ve searched and looked for the well of answers are all within me. This is an amazing place to be when you exist yet you know that this physical reality is all an illusion of your own mind. If I get lost in the mind, then my way back home is thru the heart! then I would say that my body, mind and heart needs to be in alignment, to function as a true and free integrated human being. For my spirit is having these physical experiences. It’s a matter of choice! To be loved and love or to be hated and hate? Simple yet profound.

When you remember to bring these four aspects of yourself together, body, mind, heart and spirit , you are going to attract situations which your heart desires. How are we going to know that they are aligned? Meditation helps to clear your mind. Dancing ignites your body’s passions. If you observe the feelings in your heart and inquire about them the heart will answer you in so many ways. Our heart is the seat of wisdom; believe and trust. Your spirit needs freedom and liberation from all attachments caused by your body-mind-heart system. Are there any blockages? Ask your dreams to show you. Dreams are our connections to our intuition and subconscious mind. They will reveal to you what is concealed from your senses. They will guide you thru a path in life that is free from expectations and outcomes, and is blessed with the knowledge that whatever you need in the moment you are graced with by the Universe.