When you are going through the dark nights of your soul

and no one else can understands you

the deepest pain of feeling alone

the overwhelming sorrows that pierces your heart

and aches till it bleeds..

the uncontrollable tears that flow like a river

the series of memories that runs

like snap shots in your photographic mind

the heaviness of your next breathe after a long sigh

the angry outburst that screams like a roaring Lion

the absence of your face right beside my bed

the sweet voice that calls me “hummingbird”

the arms that held me tight

the comfort knowing that I’m safe

the sweet delight of your cooking

the 2 dozen red roses just because

everywhere I look is an empty space

an empty heart, an empty mind

if these are the price for your chaos

I would gladly take your chaos

and take it as my peace!

for these heartaches will not give me peace

but chaos…so your chaos is my peace!

loving you unconditionally:)

HUMMINGBIRD!

What blocked the victims from healing? The most interesting blockage that I found with victims that prevent them from healing is not being aware of their participation in the game that their own voices in the head continually tells them. They identify with the perpetrator’s tresspasses and not knowing that they are still stuck in this play, when they don’t allow healing until they see the truth. They become attached to the past and they don’t seem to let go of the memory and beliefs that they are still suffering. This prevent them from living in the moment because they again attract the same abusive attack in another form of drama in their reality.

The Universe has some way of giving us situations all over again until we finally get the lesson. The wisdom arises only when they become aware that the memory is only in their head and pain body. The voices that keep telling them that they are not good enough are not to be indentified with, but be dismissed with conscious awareness. This keeps them from being a victim and get stuck on  blaming the other person. I guess this is an easy way out not to face their fear. A way out not to change or transform their lives.

From a victim’s point of view, they see the world as an enemy because of the conditioning or abuse that they experienced. To be empowered you have to see beyond the pain of the past and see the bigger picture. Beyond form or drama that occurred in your life is the underlying truth that is waiting to be discover. Which is going to be your freedom from being a vicitm of life’s circumstances. Before we incarnate here or materialize on earth, we came from nothing which is the unseen spirit world. There we made our sacred contracts as to what our souls want to learn here. In someone’s drama, the perpetrator or the villain is actually a blessing in disguise or your sacred contract to become who you are and what lessons you want to experience in this lifetime. Once you can see beyond the pain, you will find the freedom in knowing that everything was just perfect, coming from the bigger picture you suddenly realized that without the enemy there will be no victory. The empowered only become who he is when his strength and faith is put to test. This is all but a play that we are the actors of this so called life. We are also the creators of this drama.

When you disown yourself you are fragmented and you see yourself separate from others. Your filter of perception is distorted and feels that everyone is here to attack you. You are projecting your own deepest fears and negative thoughts. To be aware is to know what you are thinking in the present moment. Ask yourself “where are my thoughts right now?” Then you will be in touch to the energy that you are projecting as you know that what you think is what you project externally. You will be able to connect why things happen the way they are. To be aware that everything that’s in your field is what you magnetized. The main attractor is you and your thoughts so the secret in healing the “victims mentality” is being aware of the voices in your head and say to yourself this too shall pass and everything will be fine. I am loved!